Was It Really That Bad? madmax: Was life with me really that bad?
I did everything in my power to try to make you happy. Why couldn't you be happy with all we had? Why did you have to get stuck on things you had no control over? Why couldn't you accept infertility and get on with your life.
I just don't understand.
We had the "perfect" lives going for us aside from infertility. We had the perfect house, perfect jobs, perfect pets. I took you traveling around the world to try to get your mind off of it. We did everything together...EVERYTHING...we spent every weekend together. Didn't this mean anything at all to you?
I don't get it.
Was it really that miserable to be around me? I always tried to do what was right...maybe I didn't, but I did try. What else did you expect me to do? What else could I have done? I committed myself to our marriage thru thick and thin...even when I had ample justification to call it quits. I guess you will never understand that level of commitment.
So I sit here alone crying again this morning wondering what went wrong...wondering why you chose divorce over all we had. It just doesn't make sense.
You looked so good yesterday at court...the same beautiful girl I fell in love with so long ago. How could you feel so good about this? How could you feel so good about leaving a 15 year relationship without trying? How could I have been so wrong about you? How can all that we meant to each other be over. I just don't get it.
Was it all a front? Did the adoption ever mean anything to you? How could you run from it all without even talking it out?
The hardest part is thinking that you'll be better off without me in your life.
So now, all we have left is to divide what we had together. Well, that's just great...what a great time :'(.
I guess all that's left is 'Good-bye'. Thanks, thanks alot :'(.
Re: Was It Really That Bad? Fendann: Very well done, Max...I started to get all teary over Jugg's letter, and yours just put me over the edge.
I'm gonna go for a short walk now...
