Worked my 1st suicide today Wherezmygun: i got a call today at 0600 for respond to a soldier that hung himself. this was the 1st time in my 6 years as acop that i have had to deal with this. I reacted quite well for me. I didnt freak out at the sight of this pooe soldier that just took his own life. i did my job, made my calls and sacured the scene.
Standing there in this kids room(he was 20) i read his letter and i just could not make sence of it. he you have kid has alot going for him. yeah she depressed so over the passing of his granmom and pa. said somethogn that he was not a good soldier. but that was it he took his life because He thought he was not good enough to live. i just cant get a grip on that part. hes left other little notes for his family with his atm card and keys to his car, saying he was sorry to his dad that he didnt have more to leave him. I feel so sorry for this kid and his family when they find out. what really upsets me is this kid has been hanging there for at least a day. none of his friend checked in on him in a whole day.
I dont know it just seems unreal to me. I have seen dead bodys before but not of a person that took there own life. its just so sad/ selfish/ and unnessacery. there are so many other ways to slove a problem then to do that. and in such a painful way my god the pain this kid had to put himself thru. brings tears to my eyes and makes my stomic turn.
sorry guys had to talk about it some let it out...im good this is my job and will be for many years to come. thanks for being there.-Ric
Re: Worked my 1st suicide today superwife: Ink, I am so sorry. I know how difficult this can be, even if you did not know him (not sure if you did or not).
Go ahead and vent. You need to,(especially with all that you have going on now) You can vent away to me any time.Unfortunately I have personal experience in this subject :(
Re: Worked my 1st suicide today chaotic: Inked, that must have been tough. It goes to show how strong of a person you are.
