I haven't been feeling myself...(understatement) Feel: I don't feel like me... I know it's been a long ordeal for me, but lately a lot of things have been affecting me!
I am finally after 3 years accepted a drug to help me deal with my anxiety. I feel uneasy all the time and I am always on guard.
I have gained so munch wait ans I refuse to go to a gym. My son has been very difficult to deal with lately and it's a struggle with money and a struggle within myself...
My Ex was to keep my son overnight on Wednesday because he supposedly had a full house and I do not want my son to sleep with anyone but him and he instead brought him home saying there was no room... how much room does a 3 1/2 yr old take up... when he dropped him off he had his cousin from out of town here and he asked me how to get somewhere!
He dropped off his son on his night which he only ahs him 2 days a week at take out his cousin....
He has all the freedom, able to come and go as he pleases with home life, work and any other commitment.... he looks great all the time and I look like shit...
I am really down about myself. The weight did a number on my whole body, and I just don't feel like me... I know that there ain't no happy pill... but I am just not happy....
I try not to talk to my X but calls all the time and to get me to talk to him he starts about our son, then throws in a line about loving me and he has changed and I just say I don't want to talk about it....
When I am feeling this down I check with my calender to see if I am PMS'ing but I just finished and I am still down. I want to go to sleep and wake up when all the pain and misfortune is gone!
Re: I haven't been feeling myself...(understatement) chaotic: Feel,
I have no frame of reference for what you are going thru, so I wont try to say I understand. I just wanted you to know that someone is listening even though I have no advice.
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Feel,
I have no frame of reference for what you are going thru, so I wont try to say I understand. I just wanted you to know that someone is listening even though I have no advice.
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I know, I am all over the place... I thank you for responding anyway... Maybe it's a women thing... maybe I am just fucked up... :-\
I am just down about alot of things that's all!
Re: I haven't been feeling myself...(understatement) iya: Feel,
Hang in there! you will see the end of the rainbow eventually. hopefully soon. i wonder if your ex has some some sort of mental disorder. i say that only because my husband who cheats on me online and then claims he loves me turned out recently to have borderline personality disorder. he is currently getting treatent for it. i called the cops on him 2 weeks ago because i couldn't take his crap anymore and he threatened to kill himself in front of me if i left.
stay strong, there will be a brighter tommorrow. you have just got to believe. you just got to tell yourself that a man like that who is sleeping around is not worth your time.
Re: I haven't been feeling myself...(understatement) faraday: Oh hon- we are here, I am here- I don't know how much comfort I can provide but I am listening to you- and I think you are doing a hell of a job- you are holding on and trying to live your life and that is all we can do right?
Don't lose faith- and if you do , know that others have faith in you
