1 year later.... no more tears: Well its been a year now she has been gone. A whole damn year. Its kinda crazy cuz i still have her image in my head like i seen her yesterday but its been a year since i have seen her...talked to her..or even heard anything about her. We broke up cold turkey... meaning no contact at all...none...and this has been the hardest year of my life. I guess this is sort of a milestone to getting over her...i survived a year without her so i will survive another 1. But i wont lie what a sh!tty year it has been. The 1st few months were awfull....then the holidays...then just accepting you will never see this person again..let alone be with them. Its been a difficult ride and 1 i hope i never ride again.
We was together 7 years so maybe just 1 year is not enough time to get over her. I know im not over her or i wouldnt be posting on ojar at 4:30 in the morning talking about her. I do laugh...go out with friends...eat normally..and take care of my self....but alone sometimes it hits me...shes there and im here......sometimes i wish i never met her so i wouldnt be dealing with this but then again she did leave me something....which was knowing what its like to love somebody.
Ill be alright hell i made it a year....i have been on dates the past year and attempted to form new relationships but i compare the new girl to her and always make up a flaw and end the friendship. I dont mean to sound like a pig but ive kind of got the f*ck em and forget em attitude....only because im scared of going through this again. Or maybe its because im still not fully over her...and u cannot form a relationship with 1 person while holding on to another relationship that is gone.
They say u cant force urself not to love somebody....and u cant force somebody to love you. So i guess it will just happen....out of nowhere she will just be a distant memory and i will be happy and in love with somebody else. Just waiting on that to happen.....1 year later
Re: 1 year later.... trapped: I know this too, and it scares me that I will never get over him. I didnt get over him the other time we split up, and a lot of time had passed before we reconciled. Who's to say that I will now? But I so very much hope that I do, that you do, that we all do. I dont want to forget him, not that I ever would....I just want to be able to go a day w/o feeling such great despair and longing.
I read somewhere once that it takes two years. Why two years? I havent a clue. None of it makes any sense anyway. But if thats IS the case then you are half-way there. Hopefully it doesnt take two years but rather that you are much closer to fully letting go than you think you are.
I posted this the other day....it seems to me as though it may resonate with you.
http://ojar.com/boards/index.php/topic,35049.0.html
