The end of firsts jason_stl: Today marks the 32nd birthday of my ex. I didn't even realize it until I got into work this morning and my outlook reminded me that it was her birthday.
This is the last of the firsts that I am going through since divorced and I can honestly say that I am not sad in the least. Perhaps it was the horrible way we ended it or the fact that I moved on months ago. I thought I would feel something for her today and at least maybe have an urge to send a card or write.
I don't know whether I should be happy for myself not caring, or upset with myself because every memory I have of us is now tainted.
Anyone else felt completely indifferent with the last first they experienced post-divorce?
Re:The end of firsts LKN4ME: Jason-
Yep, I understand. After I divorced my ex-husband I didn't even care. NUMB is a good word. (Reminds me of the song. By Linkin Park)
You should do something nice for yourself today. Make the most of it.
Hope you have a Great Day!
Re:The end of firsts ChristyM: Yep, my 13th wedding anniversary was June 8th, the very day my ex picked me up at the airport from visiting my boyfriend in the Virgin Islands. How weird is that? The "sad" thing is I didn't even realize it until I was writing out a check to him and I asked him what the date was.
Christy
Re:The end of firsts Safetykc: Ya Jason,
Went through something similar. I was always one to NEVER forget an important date and my X's b-day a month after D day completely breezed by me. Totally forgot it for weeks until she IM'd me about her friend being pregnant and how happy she was to be having a baby at 30, the same age as my X...My x stressed her age so much I knew she was fishing for a reason I didnt wish her a happy b-day.
I just said, oh yeah, you recently had a bday too...happy bday.
It was kind of liberating, amazing, etc, and all that...one of the early signs of moving on...
Stay strong,
Safety
