Re: mornings are the worst ChiefWiggum: For me nights were by far the worst. Mainly because I was busy during the day so I am somewhat preoccupied. In the morning I gotta go to work, but at night I was left to myself to stare at the ceiling and be alone.
Re: mornings are the worst ezydriver: I find that when I woke up, for a brief moment my ex wasn't on my mind. Then suddenly BAM it hit me like a ton of shit dropped on my head from a great height. For the rest of the time I remained in bed, awake, I would get more and more depressed and even once I'd got up too. It would be about a good hour before the distractions of the day would start to ease the panicky, depressing craving feelings. As time goes by you'll realise that you've been awake for 10 minutes or so before they even enter your mind. your mind will be on spreadsheets at work, or the shopping list. The first time that happens, where its a good 10 minutes, you realise then that you really are kicking them from your system. It takes a while to get to that point, but its ultimately worth it.
Re: mornings are the worst caliban2:
Oh my GOD,
AMG I am sitting in bed with my laptop writing this - after having woken up again in a panic. It is freaky how similar the feelings/physical reactions all of us are having. Comforting to know others are feeling the way I do in the mornings - just wish all of us were feeling something nice instead :)
Well, I guess I'll have to get out of bed and deal with another day of this waking nightmare called divorce.....
Re: mornings are the worst AMG: It is like every morning I wake up in a panic attack... Like I have to do something, and I cant and then I just feel so down all I want to do is cry. I do usually start to feel better by the end of the day, but the first 1/2 of the day is a real struggle.
I am realizing that breakups/divorce are truely the most devestating thing a person can go through. All the lies, betrayals, hurt feelings, realizations, and things we are literally shoved into facing, most of us against our will.
I guess if you look at how we all have reacted pretty much the same way... we cant help what happens. Our bodies are going to react, our brains are definately going to react. As they say it is a process. Some face it head on and others face it kicking & screaming. (I am a kicker & a screamer!).
But, the most important fault is it will get better. It HAS to... it does for everyone else so what would make me any different. Everyone has felt the same feelings I have felt... Everyone here thought they had it all, had the love of a live time, and felt as if they were going to die when it was gone.
I realize the harder I hold on the longer I am going to make the process, but my God, I CAN NOT let go. I do not WANT to let go. I think about it, and I freak! (Hopefully that is part of the process for us leavees)
Re: mornings are the worst ezydriver: [quote"> (I am a kicker & a screamer!).
[/quote"> Which is facing it head on. I have known people who can ignore their grief. I dont know how they do it. But, it comes back in some sort of manifestation. Pain is how we grow and learn. Never ignore it. It HAS TO be gone through. Better sooner than later. If you never do at all, you'll be doomed to repeat the same mistakes, attract the wrong people etc...
