I've come a long way hr: I was just admiring how far I have come in the last 5 months. I am actually proud of myself for the first time in a long time. I have waited my entire life to feel this kind of peace. It is still a struggle every single day. I am not depressed anymore. I don't feel the lonliness as much anymore. I am starting to feel for the first time. Sometimes I don't like the fact that I am feeling so much, but it is so much better than the numb empty black hole that used to be my life. I guess that through my experience I took the time to examine myself and what part I played in my marriage. I know that it was unhealthy from the very first day. If I hadn't took the steps to say no more where would I be today. Feeling emptyness and unhappiness. I was blindsided by the cheating and the lies, but I decided that they are not going to define who I am. I am no longer scared to wake up each morning and wonder what the day has instore for me. I took the time to really work on me. It has to start within ourselves or we just carry the baggage into whatever comes next. I guess letting go is the only way to move forward.
This process has probably been by far the hardest thing I have ever had to go through, but I think that this time I am going to make it. I am learning that it is not so selfish of me to want more. I have been told for 13 years that I am a selfish bi%^&. The things I wanted were so small and would have made such a difference. Some people are so empty inside that they are not capable of giving those things. I guess in a nutshell I have come so far. I am no longer in a trance walking around blind. I finally understand that saying. If it's to be it's up to me.
Re: I've come a long way tripny2k6: GOOD FOR YOU!!!!!! ;)
