confused!!!! farfromhome: I ended my 5 year marriage 3 months ago. It was after 3 of the worst years of my life, my husband just turned into a child, with me doing everything for him, he would lie about everything, chat women up when he was out (apparently for a laugh!), he was verbally and physically abusive and after many chats & promises from him that things would change....I just woke up one day and realised that I wasn't in love with him, so even if things changed it wouldn't actually mean that I would get the life I deserve.
I haven't even filed for divorce yet, we have so many financial issues to sort through and I want to make sure that's done before I take that step.
He's been very up and down with me for the past few months, calling me on Saturday nights (when he's drunk) to ask when I'm coming back, being nice one minute then horrible the next. I gave him allowances for it, I realise he is hurting.
Anyway without boring everyone, we've now sold our house (I had to move out and continue paying all the bills because he refused to!!) and things are starting to move swiftly.
He has been very reasonable over the last few weeks and I guess for me reality has started to sink in and I'm becoming terrified of what my future holds. I live in a different country to where I grew up and don't have any family nearby, my friends have rallied around which is great, but in some ways its not the same. I have no fallback, I'm on my own & beginning to realise that although single life has been fun and I've become my old bubbly self, there are aspects that are painful.
Anyway I was going to phone him last night because I was really upset, but I know it will only complicate things, so today I found this website and hoped it was a place I could vent out all these mixed emotions!
Re: confused!!!! icwtsmnl: You are definitely in luck, using this place to vent all the mixed emotions. people are great here, in general, and everyone understands the ups and downs. hang in there. its rough now, but it gets better.
