tomorrow AMG: This is so hard... He is leaving tomorrow. Leaving to "share his life" with her. My stomach is in knots and just a fraction of a second thought of it causes me to start to feel so anxious...
Its all just so final. That he is really going to be able to get in that car and leave... is just completely devestating. I know he is really going to be able to do just that, but...
I have been trying so hard to really see things as they are... That he has used me and lied to me and remember that, instead of dwelling on all the good times. But it still makes me sad... that he could actually do that to me.
The thought that he is going to not be in my life anymore is still foreign to me. I know I should be happy, but I am not. I am/was willing to do whatever it took to make it work. To work though our problems. But his was not willing to give anything. (Gee, I wonder why). It still doesnt feel real. I am getting so sad... I really feel like I am really going to freak out. He is leaving, and I cant stop this.
Re: tomorrow Peaceandquiet: sigh... nope you can't stop it..... and if you did.. you wouldn't like yourself later for doing it.... time will pass.. and days will go by... you will learn to accept what has happened.. and start to embrace it.. today is just another day of life.. and emotion filled day that will pass.. look back at a point in your life when you dreaded doing something.. maybe a dentist visit... or a funeral.. you dreaded that day...but you got past it.. and now you don't really think about it anymore.. this is just like one of those days. Granted I think this takes longer to get over.. but one day.. it will be just another day that came and went in your life...
Re: tomorrow LSpr11: AMG--
I know how difficult this must be for you. It probably would be a good thing that you are not there when he leaves. You will be an emotional wreck if you are watching him pack everything. When my husband left he just stuffed all his clothes in a trash bag and left within 20 minutes. (I made sure I wasn't there when he did it). So this past weekend I had to clean out all the rest of the stuff and put it in trash bags and when he brought the kids home I gave him everything. Please, Please if you need anything e-mail me <snip> I am the same way. I don't want to let go or divorce, seperate or anything and he wants it. Then after he left I found out there was someone else! I have been devestated! He has been gone almost for 2 months and all he can do is talk about how great his new life is. All I can say is good for you because I feel like I am living in hell now! I'm here if you need anything at all or just want to talk! Take care!!!!!
