Re:Update on the new life Spectrum: I finally hit on a bit of a milepost.
I had an entire conversation with the ex tonight, without too blatantly bringing up his OW and his cheating. Considering I just found out last night that he's back with her, and knowing my own tendencies to want to maim and destroy when her name is mentioned, I thought that was pretty good.
Okay, sure, I had a few brief snappy moments when I started to get sick of thinking about it and even more sick of not talking about it and thinking about it, but I STILL managed to keep myself under control.
Because, you know what? When someone hurts me, I have a strong urge to make it CRYSTAL clear how small they really are for making me feel that way. And then I'm just as bad as they are, if not worse.... Because let's face it, I've got the brains and just enough salt to make it sting when someone hits me below the belt.
The good thing is that I'm learning..... I'm learning it feels good to take the REALLY high ground, not just the slightly higher side of the trail down the middle. I'm also learning that it feels good to *not* wreak emotional havoc upon those who do their best to mangle my psyche, because they end up doing it just as well on their own, and that way I'm guilt free. :)
So, where to go from here.... Well, I feel like I'm finally doing what *I* want with my life. I love my new job, even if it is slowly but surely turning me into a pauper. I like the people I work with immensely. I have everything I really need for a home (okay, well, everything I *need*, but a dishwasher would sure be nice.....).
I'm me being me. But geez, it would be nice to have someone to share it with. :p
And not the ex, either.... Someone NORMAL this time.
Spectrum.
Re:Update on the new life incoherentlonghorn: [quote author=Spectrum link=board=1;threadid=3576;start=0#msg28094 date=1091153952">
Well, I feel like I'm finally doing what *I* want with my life. I love my new job, even if it is slowly but surely turning me into a pauper. I like the people I work with immensely. I have everything I really need for a home (okay, well, everything I *need*, but a dishwasher would sure be nice.....). [/quote">
That is great news. Hope thing continue to progress in the same or an even better light.
Take care,
LL
Re:Update on the new life Safetykc: Glad you got moved and settled into your new life and things are going well Spec, aside from the fat lip.
Loving your new job and doing what YOU want to do in your life is so much more important in the big scheme of things.
Congragulations and glad to see you are rec-connected to the world wide web! ;D
Hope things keep getting better and a new dishwasher is in the tarot cards for your near future.
Take care,
Safety
Re:Update on the new life Spectrum: HAH! A dishwasher is not likely in the cards..... For one thing, we'd need to add on to the kitchen to make room! :P
Spectrum.
