Re: devine intervention grendalkhan: Ya know - I'm not sure what it is I'm looking for. I've tried praying - I'm still miserable - tried asking for guidance; a sign - something - ANYTHING, but I still came up wit nothing. I was really hoping to find some kind of "arrow" telling me what I should do.
I still hurt.
I was determined today just to spend the day drinking - I didn't - hell, still don't want to face to day for what it is. It's supposed to be my third anniversary today. I'd bled my fingers on a guitar getting a song I was going to play for her just right - I'll never get that chance, and I doubt she would listen anyway.
Re: devine intervention allilm: This may not help, but I know one of the things my minister suggested in a sermon where he touched on the feeling of depression and hopelessness was to seek out someone who is worse off than you and help that person. Perhaps volunteer at a soup kitchen, work on a Habitat house, become a Big Brother, etc.
Re: devine intervention grendalkhan: None of those options are available to me here - very rural area.
Re: devine intervention allilm: If you're interested in it, I'm sure there's some service related activity you could participate in. Maybe contact a church or two to find out what organizations they know of.
Re: devine intervention grendalkhan: Ya know, I don't think I have in me, anyway. I've worked in the service industry for the last 17 years because I thought I was really helping. Now that I've fallen so hard that I'm surprised that my heart and spirit was all that broke. I've begged God in a church (does that mae it to His face?) to help me, and so far it's gone ignored. Religion was my last refuge, no I *really* don't know what to do.
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