TV - "Divorce" movies jennyfromtheblock: Well, I watched alot of TV this weekend. Didn't really know where to put this, sort of a vent, sort of something else.....
Today on TV I watched "Irreconsilable (sp?) Differences" and "The War Of The Roses", both stupid frickin divorce movies. Cried my eyes out with both of 'em and just feeling really low.
With "The War Of The Roses" I was feeling two distinct ways: both like thank God we don't hate each other that much and also some freaky sort of jealousy, like why don't we have enough passion to at least hate each other??? Stupid, I know, but our relationship now seems more like "nothing" than anything else, including hate or jealousy. Seriously, I know how stupid that sounds, HATE is never a good alternative but *nothing* seems like all of the past 7 years were just... nothing!
Anyway, I had a big whole stupid thing for calling him but thought maybe if I let it out here instead...
Good luck to everyone and keep strong. Without the hate.
Re:TV - "Divorce" movies jennyfromtheblock: You know, I meant to say more but I didn't so now I am going to.
I have been really paranoid lately. My X has a little girlfriend in this town, I don't know much about her but what I do know makes me paranoid. She is a little girl, like 19, not over 21 at the most and she's a student. There are about 5 schools in my town but I am also a student (at 31) and I'm paranoid that she goes to my college. What if, God forbid, she does and when classes start in the end of August, OMG what if I have her in a class??? She will know me ( I have his last name) but I will not know her. What if that is her, right there in the other aisle at the grocery store?? So what, right? But she knows only his side, his lies. I am not the person he tells people I am.
It's so stupid, but I am really feeling.... Ugh I don't know.. every girl I meet I feel yucky about. And that is stupid. We, as women who have been cheated on and lied to should stick together "I got all my sistas and me" or something, but some little girl who is dating my X she is only thinking about the BS he has spun for her.
It's not right.
I dont' know what I meant to add here, but I am not hitting the point right I know that. Just really feeling lost again like it's back at the beginning. I crusised some dating sights today and on each one I found my X's profile, ON EACH ONE and what he has to say for himself made me want to puke.
It just seems like it will never end. I had really been inwardly proud of myself for the "progress" I had made but it ultimately means nothing when I realize that I am not moving on and he has a little underage tw@t to make his ego feel better, like he's done nothing wrong. I know that if my daughter was dating some 30 year old man who is not yet divorced and had a child I would FREAK, but one of the last times I was at my X's house I heard a message on his answering machine, his girlfriend's mom wanting to know if she needed a ride to school the next morning, so Mom's okay with her little girl dating a married older man... it just blows my mind and I am reeling emotionally. He (the X) had called earlier this week to see if he could see his daugther this weekend but the weekend has come and gone and I heard nothing else from him... makes me think he came into town and first hooked up with his GF and was having too much fun to come see his daughter.... I dont' know where I am trying to go with this, but thanks for always listening.
-jenny
Re: TV - "Divorce" movies imisshim: gosh.. i'm so sorry honey
It is so hard for me to even think of my husband with anyone else...
my husband left me 26 for a 35 year old.. and he's 24
so i guess we are the oppisite....
i'm so sorry you are going through this...
i think if i saw her again i would run over her with my car....
and then scoop her up and put her in a bag and lay her on his porch but thats just me... dont have any idea what i would do if we went to school together...
maybe you should have a BIG OL picture of your daughter on your notebook or something.....
you know.... play the game to
i say this but i cant be that mean.... maybe theres something wrong with me... oh i know what it is....
I'm HUMAN!!! and he's NOT!!!
yea thats it...
Re: TV - "Divorce" movies kipeachi: I'm sorry your going through this , its tough. My x left me (26,and he's the same age) for a 19 yr old girl w/ a two year daughter! I couldn't stand to think of her daughter in what is my sons room taking over. ugh, and seeing the ow in what used to be "our house" making her self at home, talk about want to puke! At first he would call and want his son but then wouldn't show up, and it ticked me off knowing he was w/ them instead of his own son, but the truth of it being is he didn't have room for his son and them all in his truck! Things has smoothed out, and I just let things be so our son can visit w/ his dad, so I tolerate the ow. But I would definitly love to run over her............LOL
Re: TV - "Divorce" movies 1hrtbroken+2: Okay, put "Tawanda" back in the box. LOL!
We all know the feelings...my stbxh is dating a fellow cop - how 'bout that!
Please note - she's more afraid of me than I am of her - Cop or not, she knows I'll kick her ass!
