This weekend may kill me faraday: So this Saturday is our 11th wedding anniversary- and given my recent history (see other post), I a in a state of petrified fear that this weekend will totally overwhelm and swamp me- he, on the other hand, is going out with some friends and having fun while I have to stay with our daughter (which I don't mind don't get me wrong,) but I cannot show emotion around her as well as his parents (since we are in their house) and I can't show emotion around them either- so there you go, he gets to go into oblivion and I get to supress everything in front of everyone and be the responsible one
I know I sound bitter but for once I would like to be able to have my feelings- I feel drawn very tight right now and am afraid that this weekend and all of our memories that constantly haunt me will break me
Re: This weekend may kill me darkrose: Find something to do to keep you busy. Get friends to take you out (your friends will likely understand what's going on and try to help you anyway--at least if they're like my friends)
I know when I'm busy, I don't have time to think about anything going on. :) Good luck.
Re: This weekend may kill me sosad05: Yes, I agree. Make yourself very busy. Make plans now. Go to dinner with friends. Do something crazy....go to haunted houses! Try to make yourself occupied so you dont have time sit around and think about it. Ofcourse, it will still cross your mind--even if you're busy--but it wont consume you if you're just sitting alone. Dont allow the grief to take you over. Take control of the situation. If need be...make a plan for every hour of the weekend. You'll get through it and we'll be here to support you!
Re: This weekend may kill me vdc_1975: I feel so bad for you faraday, still having to live in HIS parents house while you go through all this. Its practically impossible to try and move on when that is your living situation. I hope this weekend turns out better for you than you fear.
GL and God Bless
Re: This weekend may kill me Feel: Far,
I told you how I feel about this. I hate you having to go thru this and you don't deserve to walk around with a foot in your mouth just because.
I know it's his family's home and tho you are struggling with even having to go through emotion when no one is there, what do you feel is really happening here? How can I help or anyone else help so you can deal with your emotions to get thru?
I feel your pain! I am sos orry I wish I could come visit you!
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