I didn't mean to hurt you carlapbf: I'm so sorry. I didn't know that what I did was hurting you. I know now. I'm sorry I kept doing that to you. I'm sorry. If I could go back and do it again knowing what I know now I'd walk away and not continue hurting you. I'm sorry. You deserved better.
Re: I didn't mean to hurt you lonewolf: Hi Carla,
I assume its still a fresh wound? I emphasize with you, i too will feel eternally sorry for being the major cause in our seperation.
But i've been better lately. You know how?
Acknowledging the fact that she left me. She gave up on us. Yes she did try, bless her soul, for exactly one year... but she couldn't let the initial issue go. She hung on to it, using it as a weapon. She never did forgive me, even though she says she has and has moved on, and i gave her everything a woman could ever ask for after my mistake, which she wholeheartedly agrees.
But still she gave up. I suggest you focus on that if you were the dumpee. I kept fighting till the end. I still loved her even though she didn't love me anymore.
Hang on to it Carla. Focus on you now. He gave up. Not you.
Re: I didn't mean to hurt you broken_halo: Hey LF:
Proud of ya!
Re: I didn't mean to hurt you lonewolf: [quote author=broken_halo link=topic=36097.msg396527#msg396527 date=1162527409">
Hey LF:
Proud of ya!
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Too bad this was the day before i found out there is another guy whom, with evidence, i believe is traying to get with her, and she has invested in him emotionally.
I was doing better then, honestly, when i posted that, Halo. I'm back to square one again now.
Re: I didn't mean to hurt you broken_halo: Yeah, that's why i said, i stopped snooping.. 3 months after he left, I found out he started dating his best friends sister. I thought this girl as my lil sister in a way. I was so proud of her cuz she's going to be a teacher, and she always hung out with us when all of us would get together. Little did I know she had a crush on my man. It's worst when you know them, and really don't have anything bad to say about them. :(
I heard through the grapevine, that they looked inlove, couldn't stop making out-- when i heard that, I literally dropped to the floor & cried, like those I can't catch my breath cuz i'm crying so much. Like you said, I felt like my heart broke all over again. I hated the fact that he passed by my house w/her in the car... Come on, have some compassion for the woman you dated for 7 F'n years. So anywho.... We all learn from mistakes. That's when I stopped wanting to know what was going on his life and started looking after myself.
He told me, "I just don't want to be in a relationship anymore".
Right!
I deserve more.
