So pointless faraday: So I am sitting here at work after yetanother sleepless night- god how I miss sleep! An everything keeps running through my head- all of our lives together- and it is all so pointless- we ended up here anyways- and he was right, it is too late to go back- we will never get it back- I used to believe that maybe it wouldn't be the same but maybe better- but it woun't be- its gone- 11 years- gone- when I look at him, all I feel is insecurity and anger, and some love yes but it is so hard for me not to just break down and beg for my old life back- the one where I was married and had a family the one where I could answer yes we have been together 11 years and we are ok- but now it is gone and I am so sad inside- for two months I have secretly hoped we could fix this and now I know that all he is doing is trying to make it easier for me until i have enough money saved- he just doesn't want to say it- and my daughter is so confused- I am so tired - and totally despondent
Sorry just rambling- needed to get something out
Re: So pointless allmusic76: don't apologize for letting it out.
Post a billion times if it makes you feel better. Thats the point right? Get it ALL out.
Be as insane and expressive as you want. Pour every discontention onto the floor... let out every irrational thought and frustration. Better to do that here than in your relationship right? If there is ever hope, it is best to coddle it, rather than take it for granted.
Re: So pointless JNA: [quote author=faraday link=topic=36578.msg389458#msg389458 date=1161691860">
So I am sitting here at work after yetanother sleepless night- god how I miss sleep! An everything keeps running through my head- all of our lives together- and it is all so pointless- we ended up here anyways- and he was right, it is too late to go back- we will never get it back- I used to believe that maybe it wouldn't be the same but maybe better- but it woun't be- its gone- 11 years- gone- when I look at him, all I feel is insecurity and anger, and some love yes but it is so hard for me not to just break down and beg for my old life back- the one where I was married and had a family the one where I could answer yes we have been together 11 years and we are ok- but now it is gone and I am so sad inside- for two months I have secretly hoped we could fix this and now I know that all he is doing is trying to make it easier for me until i have enough money saved- he just doesn't want to say it- and my daughter is so confused- I am so tired - and totally despondent
Sorry just rambling- needed to get something out
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Yes I know the feeling all too well...
But it is because we miss the "Dream"
The Dream of what should have been...
Thing is though things don't work out that way sometimes so we are left with the hurt of it all
You will read it a lot here
Then you are not "Rambling"...
You are speaking from the heart IMO
I admire that...
In time you will get through and past all of this
It just takes time and A Lot of energy...
I hope this helps
Stay Strong
JNA
Re: So pointless allmusic76: I agree.. I think some of the most heartfelt and truthful things we say are when we are "rambling' or on a "rant"
