So Angry faraday: Today my emotions have decided to run away with me in the car- without brakes-
I am so angry at him- sdo hurt- he hasn't done anything new- opposite, now he is acting like he wants us back- but I can't do it- I thought I could. thought it would be ok- but I can't bring myself to go there with him again- he hurt me so much the past 3 months, he has destroyed me and my daughter, he cheated on me- and flaunted it and told me I should feel bad for her! I hate him for this- hate him that he has destroyed our lives together, destoyed his relationship with our child, destroyed her sense of security that her mom and dad would always be there for her together- destroyed my sense of love and security that I had found someone who wouldn't cheat- who would never fdo that to me- and now I am thrown into the waters again- I don't want to be- but I ache with how much I miss being touched and held and told that someone loves me and misses me when I am not with them- sdomeone to cuddle with and watche movies, someone to share my day with and to spoon with at night- someone to show me that I mean something to them- and I hate him for taking it away- for making it so that I cannot see past what he did with her
Re: So Angry mariher: I thought the same of Kevin also. I always thought that he would never do that to me and I loved him unconditionally, like a child. So I can tell you that your not alone in this. I know you feel betrayed. It especially hurts when you have a child with him. Sometimes it's so difficult to deal with your emotions when being cheated on and myself being a mom to a little girl all we want to do is make sure it never happens to our little girl. But trust me Faraday when I tell you, it hurts but when something is THAT unhealthy, it is something your better off not having in your life. Let him go and find someone else to treat badly. Let it not be you. You deserve better and you deserve to be happy so that way your little girl will grow up to be happy too.
Re: So Angry faraday: I am working on it- if you saw my earlier post you know my situation is pretty screwed up- today I am just so angry at him for this- for this wreck that was our marriage- that was my life with him- and I am having a hard time keeping it under control today
Re: So Angry td7629: Even if you did decide to try to work things out with him.. Do you think you could ever fully trust him again?? I know with what my ex did to me I would never ever be able to trust him again. I am sure you do miss the good times and having someone there to share your life with but you deserve to be with someone who is going to love and respect you.. someone who you can trust.. Hang in there!
