Having a hard time myaacerto: I'm having a tough time. I promissed my H that I would leave the past in the past but....its hard... so I wrote this.
I’ve always taken the road not taken. The one that is not as clear as the others. The one that looks dark and scary but I know that looks can be deceiving. I’m taking it now. As I take my first steps down the path I look up at the sky and see the dark clouds lingering above me, threatening me. I feel rain drops on my forehead and close my eyes. As a child whenever it rained I would say to myself “god must be sad today.” One drop washes away my pain, drop, the next my sorrow, drop, the next my sadness, drop, the next my anger. I look up at the sky and watch the sun fight the clouds. He makes it through and my soul is cleansed, my heart is warmed. I look straight ahead at the road in front of me and even though my legs are weak and my eyes are swollen and heavy I put one foot in front of the other and keep going. I don’t move too fast because I know I need to conserve my energy for what may lie ahead. I don’t move too slow because I know that the farther along I get, the harder it will be to turn back. I don’t look back. I fight the urge to look back because I know if I look back I’ll trip and fall. My legs are weak and I may not have the strength to get back up. So I don’t look back.
I continue down the path of the road not taken, ready and willing to face what may lie ahead, knowing in my heart and soul that one is never confronted with more than they can handle. If I ever feel like I’ve lost the will to fight then, there would be no point in going forward. I would freeze in time while life went on around me, without me. I don’t ever want to be in that place, again.
Like I said, I’ve always taken the road not taken. The one that is not as clear as the others. The one that looks dark and scary, but I know that looks can be deceiving and it will clear up towards the end.
By MYAACRTO
Re: Having a hard time fearfulandalone: This is very nicely written. I can relate to a lot of the things you said.
