Dear M fly: Dear M,
God, there is so much that sometimes I want to pour of me. I haven't really known you that long, but we fit. We both know it.
You say to me that I am one of the only women that you never feel the need to claw out and need space. That alone warmed my heart when you said it to me.
We are so funny you know. Your lastest phrase to try and comprehend it, is " we get it , but we don't understand it!" We are so similar. I am not ready to admit that I am giving you my heart and neither are you, but we are both horrible when we are just talking and being us
Like last night when we were putting up Christmas lights on the house. You were working so hard and you had such a funny grin on your face. You wouldn't let me peek! You wanted to surprise me. You spent hours at the store getting the " perfect " lights and planning out the house, and then you were up on that ladder at 3:00 am stringing them.
And when you called me out and walked me down the driveway, and turned me around, I nearly started to Cry. I told you as much and you just held me. You held me so tight. You never put up Christmas lights on a house either so it was just as special to you.
Then you started talking about what we were going to do next year. I never push you away when you do this, I never correct you. I just giggle on the inside. Like, you see us doing this in a year. Working around the house, and having fun and just being us.
We don't label, but you can tell me you love
We don't label, but you never will walk on me, even when I am dark and cloudy and dealing with anger and hurt
I really believe for the first time in my life, someone loves me. And that person is you.
I know you know I am a runner and I promise I will do anything I can not to run. I promise. I have already tried twice and you are just patience.
I am afraid to give you my heart, please be patience, it's still healing a bit.
Chriss
Re: Dear M Crystal_Blue_024: That was beautiful :)
Re: Dear M fly: Thanks. He is a special man. Such a special, special soul in my life. ;D I am blessed to know him.
Re: Dear M fly: Dear M
What are you trying to do, steal my heart? I swear sometimes you are. You don't even realize it, and I think I am doing the same thing to you.
This morning you called off work, because you were working around my house. I hit a wall and had to sleep. Just a little nap. I asked you before I fell asleep if you were calling off, you wouldn't answer, but had that miscivlous look on your face. I just rolled over
You came in three hours later and woke me up to tell me that you called off work to take care of your priorities. I asked you what that was, you said me ! I melted. I really really did.
You are starting to try and define us, but I am scared of that. I am sorry. Can't the rest of the world define us and we can just be happy? I just want to bring joy to your life and you already bring so much to mine. I don't want to lose that.
You looked so peaceful sleeping this morning. I hated to have to go to work, but we both know I needed too
Thank you so much for being you, and I can't wait until this party is over and we can just relax. We are both looking forward to it.
Chrissy
* updated this for a blant typo
Re: Dear M fly: Dear M,
This past week and weekend you were amazing. You helped me throw a party for 20 people and didn't bat an eye. You were up 24 hours wiring the new bathroom and making sure that all the tiny things that I was overwhelmed about were taken care of
When I was crabby, you hugged me. When I was overwhelmed you understood. You never yelled or raised your voice. You just supported.
When everything got changed on Monday and we needed to run to the eastside to see an unexpected guest, you were a trooper. I knew you were frustrated and yet you understood that I needed to go and needed your support
You sat with me at the doctors office and wiped my tears away. You held me when I was sad and embrassed and humilated. You didn't turn you back on me.
And yet you wonder why I accept you. You handed me over a piece of paper that you were embrassed about and expected me to walk away or not accept you. How could I not. you are a blessing. Your eyes welled up and you almost started to cry when I told you that and that you are accepted and cherished and no problem is too big.
Are you trying to steal my heart? Are you? I almost handed it over that night you were almost crying. Ialmost did. I wanted to , but fear has me still. You are less afraid at times then me, and then sometimes you are just as afraid.
I never say I love you frist. But I try and show you. One day I will be able to say it first, I promise. You think you are a burden in my life.
You are my blessing. I was blessed the day you walked in to my world and found me, becuase I was hiding from the world and anyone new. You wouldn't let me kick you out the three to five times I tried. Instead you just held me.
I do love you, and one day I may just give you my heart. I hope you accept it.
Love
Chrissy
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