More confused then ever frustrated: I haven't been on here in awhile. It has been about a month and a half since I broke up with my bf. I found out that after 5 years of dating that he had been having an affair with a mutual friend for the last 8 months.
I went through a lot of pain, but had finally gotten to a point that I felt like I was healing. I was no where close to perfect or how I used to be. But I didn't feel so hopeless about life and what was going to happen in the future.
My ex-bf stayed with the OW after I broke up with him, which hurt so bad. Well the OW broke it off with him. Since then he has started reaching out to me.
He is saying all of those things I wished he would have said before. And I am having such a hard time figuring out if he means them. I in no way shape of form want to get back with him right now. I am just trying to figure out what to do with my heart. Do I close him out completely? Or, do I keep piece of it alive? How am I supposed to know if he really truly wants to work things out so that maybe one day in the future we can be together?
I don't want to give up 5 years completely but I don't want to open myself back up to him to have him hurt me again. I just don't know where to go from here.
