How? elf624: How can a simple phone call about something that means nothing bring me from feeling good and strong to feeling like sh*t again? He said some really horrible things to me on Sunday that actually helped me put things into perspective. He is a loser and an a$$, so why do I still love him? I miss my old life. I know my new life will be good one day, but I can't let go of the old one. I hate that his voice can bring me down. I hate that he is "happy" now. How can someone be so cold-hearted that they don't even care anymore after 12 years? I want to be like that. I want to not care. I want him to be the one in pain. I want to wake up and feel good about myself again. I'm tired of feeling miserable. How do you make it stop?
Re: How? freakshow: Oh my I understand. I can't tell you how but I can feel where you are coming from on this.
I too want to not care, I too desire to feel good & happy.
I don't know anymore but all I can say is hang in there and here's a HUGE HUG from me. (((((((((((((((())))))))))))))))))
mean people suck!
Re: How? td7629: I am sorry that you are going throug this. I think all of us at one point have have felt what you are feeling. The only answer I have is time. It will take time to for you to start to feel normal again. Try to stay strong and do things that make you happy. Hang in there.
Re: How? elf624: Mean people do suck! Thanks for caring. I am normally a very strong person. I feel like such an idiot for giving a damn about this man. I can never take him back, but I need to learn how to stop answering the phone when he calls. It's just hard not to.
Re: How? freakshow: Very hard not to answer when they call! This, I too know.
Divert yourself somehow. Turn off the ringer...I do whatever it takes unless I am expecting a call back concerning our daughter.
It is so incredibly hard to go through all of this...
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