loop de loops? icwtsmnl: i know this infamous rollercoaster has plenty of steep ups and downs, but does it have loop de loops, too? it sounds stupid, i know, but i was doing fine for a number of weeks and suddenly, there's that sinking feeling in my chest again.
i was standing behind him in a quick morning meeting (like 2 ft away, really close) and I got the urge to kiss the back of his neck and stroke his hair. am i retarded? i was done with this!!! i felt good!! and i was trying to help other people feel good!!
what kicked me back here? the holidays? who knows. gotta fight it. again.......sigh....
Re: loop de loops? MrCheyny: I will have good days for a while as well - When I actually see her in person the next day I usually start back at square one and feel the same hole in my chest. Feeling down as ever, then slowly start to recover again. That is what i have been making of it lately anyway - So I have been trying to avoid her as much as possible.
I just have to remember that she is not the person I got down on one knee for. I keep remembering the good times and forget that she just walked out on me\us...who needs that
Keep your head up and stay strong, we will get there!
Re: loop de loops? surprised: Well, after seeing him last weekend, I'm back in denial. I'm back to thinking this is temporary and we'll be back together in time. It cheers me up for now, but if I'm wrong, the let down will be terrible. So yeah, I think loops and circles and going up and down the same hills again and again are all part of this stupid roller coaster.
Re: loop de loops? flipflopnomore: [quote author=MrCheyny link=topic=39091.msg426450#msg426450 date=1166711528">
I just have to remember that she is not the person I got down on one knee for. I keep remembering the good times and forget that she just walked out on me\us...who needs that
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I agree with this. My stbxh is not the man I married and love(d). I had to stop by his house to pick up some presents he got for my kids last night and I had this pit in my stomach. We only made eye contact one time as he kept looking down but when we did we kind of hung there for a second. It was hard and I was very sad when I drove away. I have to keep reminding myself that he is not fighting for us and this marriage and even though he looks sad its still his choice.
Re: loop de loops? 2be: I agree... when you get weak, think of the things your partner said to you... think of all the ways they disrespected you, hurt you. Is this someone you want to touch, kiss?
The moment I found out my X was touching/screwing another guy, she became repulsive to me... from that moment on I NEVER wanted to touch her again.
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