What should I do? mhiba: Simply, my ex left me for her ex-boyfriend recently. So after all the special times we shared, I feel like a steeping stool for her. Used and discarded with a broken heart. Sucks, but it gets worse. We have known each other since age 3, our parents are neighbors at our vacation homes. So we spent every summer together for years. It is my favorite place on this Earth, has alot of special memories for me.
However, not until this relationship ended did I realize how much I risked. Not only did I fall head over heels for her (am lost her), I now lost my favorite place. How can I go back there? All I can think about it chillin on the beach enjoying my day and then seeing the women I love holding hands with her boy? etc, etc. I feel like I lost so much, god it hurts so bad.
Now it seems as if I wont enjoy myself, but I know when the time comes around where ever I am, Ill be dreaming of the times we had together, the love we shared there. On the other hand, I have special friends there and I know they would be mad if I let a women get in my head to avoid the place I dream of all year. Im afraid it just wont be the same and I depress everyone around me.
AND I really dont want to see her and her boyfriend happy, when I am just miserable. What do you guys think I should do?
Re: What should I do? Freckles: [quote author=mhiba link=topic=39550.msg432884#msg432884 date=1167881197">
Simply, my ex left me for her ex-boyfriend recently. So after all the special times we shared, I feel like a steeping stool for her. Used and discarded with a broken heart. Sucks, but it gets worse. We have known each other since age 3, our parents are neighbors at our vacation homes. So we spent every summer together for years. It is my favorite place on this Earth, has alot of special memories for me.
However, not until this relationship ended did I realize how much I risked. Not only did I fall head over heels for her (am lost her), I now lost my favorite place. How can I go back there? All I can think about it chillin on the beach enjoying my day and then seeing the women I love holding hands with her boy? etc, etc. I feel like I lost so much, god it hurts so bad.
Now it seems as if I wont enjoy myself, but I know when the time comes around where ever I am, Ill be dreaming of the times we had together, the love we shared there. On the other hand, I have special friends there and I know they would be mad if I let a women get in my head to avoid the place I dream of all year. Im afraid it just wont be the same and I depress everyone around me.
AND I really dont want to see her and her boyfriend happy, when I am just miserable. What do you guys think I should do?
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Look for someone else who is nice
Re: What should I do? mhiba: Thanks for your advice...and you probably are right, maybe I was in love with the idea of her or maybe, it was her...I guess now it doesnt really matter, it still hurts, I still day-dream and hope.
It obviously wasnt supposed to work, she did leave me for her ex. I just wish she didnt string me alone so long. Make me think that everything was perfect and show such intimacy and passion right up to the end. It would have been easier to bear if she had just told me when these feelings first arose. Well maybe not, but I wouldnt have wasted so much time and emotion on her.
Either way thanks for the advice.
Re: What should I do? Cheri123: Please don't let her ruin your special place. Keep your special place and if she is there, go the other way. But sometimes we have to face our worst fears in order to move forward.
