hopeless feelings recentlydiscarded: I feel like Im whining like a baby but nobody understands my pain more than you guys.
Today is a bad day. No motivation to move on, no hope for the future, nothing.
Im only 25 and Im going to be a divorced single mother of one. I was the best wife I could be. I did all the things I knew how to make my husband happy. I was a devoted faithful life partner and a loving caring mother to our son. I would have done just about anything for my family. But it wasnt enough. I wasnt enough. Four and half years together and I didnt even earn an ounce of respect or decency from him. Last night I had nightmares about him. Bad dreams about hurtful things he said and did to me..but when I woke up I realized it was not just a dream. It was my reality.
If my best wasnt good enough for him...will it ever be good enough for anyone?
Re:hopeless feelings cloud: I hate days like the ones you are having. But, fortunately, they are only temporary.
He said hurtful things to you and was never respectful or decent to you. If so, how could he even appreaciate that you were giving the best of what you could offer to him?
It certainly will be good enough for someone else and not just good enough but it will exceed their expectations because they'll appreciate you so much.
Don't let one bad apple make you think you aren't worth finding happiness in yourself...and then with someone else.
Re:hopeless feelings Kinney26: As much as I want to believe my stbx was the one, more and more I am starting to believe she wasn't. Well the fact she wants nothing to do with me anymore is a hint. You are like me. You are young and got married. I always thought I knew a lot about relationships and marriage, but after reading several books and talking to people, I didn't know much at all. I now have a lot of new knowledge to take into my next relationship and I think that is what people like us need to do. I am 26 and have a son and there are pleanty of men like me who wouldn't mind being with a 25 year old with a child. You automatically have something in common. I sincerely believe we will find someone who makes us happy and forget all about our exes.
Re:hopeless feelings recentlydiscarded: thanks. it's just hard to imagine even considering putting my heart out there to be trampled again. I just cant help feeling like Ive really screwed up things for myself at 25. I will go on and eventually get over him, but I dont know that I will ever trust another man with my heart.
Re:hopeless feelings Kinney26: I understand completely. My ex used to be so sweet and caring and it seemed to vanish just like that. How do you know the same thing won't happen again. We won't. We just can't take out what our ex did to us on the next person because they haven't done anything and deserve the benefit if the doubt. Yea, I know. easier said than done. I haven't started dating yet so I hope I can follow my own advice.
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