Re:son of a B***h barelybreathing: Kinney,
Tis a-okay, tis a-okay....all part of "the process".
Expressing your feelings to the s2bx is fine too. Do not beat yourself up over it. It is how you are feeling, right now, at this moment.
Today, would have been our eight year anniversary. All that time, all those years and then some. Just gone, part of the past now.......
What can you do but to pick up your heart off the floor and just keep moving as if it was still beating inside you. One day we will feel it in our bodies again but for now we just learn to function numb.
BB
Re:son of a B***h amess: Ah, BB, I know, my anniversary is coming up, and I am dreading the feelings. Also dreading labor day. I am now dreading all holidays. I also wish I could date my psychiatrist. I think I'm in real trouble here :-\
Re:son of a B***h barelybreathing: amess, girl you crack me up!
Gosh, the similiarities in our lives is something....
This whole week is a challenge for me. We always vacationed the week of labor day, to celebrate our anniversary.
I did honor the day with my daughter.......a new tradition I have started with her. After all, because of this day, I have her!
The ex did call me to check on me today if I was okay. Ended the conversation with saying "I love you honey."
What? Habitual slip? Mistaken identity. Just keep moving, just keep moving.
Thank God, I have no attraction to my counselor......!
But wait, the distraction might be good!
BB
Re:son of a B***h lookin4alite: Kinney,
keep going man, I understand how you feel about the STBX. Sometimes you just got to let it out and if you don't its a feelin that you didn't try. but you know deep down she probably feels the same its just the deep waters of divide that controls her. I think she feels like my STBX that really she wants to find the bridge of friendship but she is so da%n scared that the bridge is not there. I try continually to leave the bridge open to the STBX to return, but I have to keep my self respect as well. I think she knows my terms are way different now than a year ago when this nightmare began.
thats my 2 cents how it was helpful and not meaningless.
Re:son of a B***h amess: BB, it's true. We have a lot of similarities, including your sense of humor. At least you have your daughter to celebrate with, and at least your ex calls you with a rememberance ( is this good or bad?). We cannot even be civil to eachother and don't talk. My shrink only reminds me of the dopey choice I made in husbands, he is what I wish I had gone for. Uh oh, now I'm in really big trouble. If this isn't transference, I don't know what is. Please G.D, don't let me make an ass out of myself and start flirting with him. That will firmly thrust me into the psycho catagory :)
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