feel like I'm going all the way back. Kinney26: I feel like I am going back to the denial stage, stage 1.
I know in my head that it is 99% over, but my heart still wants to tell me there is a chance. I know that most likely she isn't coming back, but I want to keep feeling like there is still a chance whether there is or not. What the hell? I thought I had come to grips with this, but I haven't. I think it is going to take this being final till I fully accept it. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! ???
Re:feel like I'm going all the way back. cloud: Has she given you any signs or mixed signals lately?
Is it possible that you are just confusing loneliness with missing her? Sometimes, when I see it that way, I feel better because I know it's not her that ultimately could fill the void but someone else.
Re:feel like I'm going all the way back. Kinney26: I don't know about mixed signals, but when I told her how I felt about her, she hasn't said anything. I know there are some things I did in our marriage I need to work on and change and I told her that. In an e-mail she said even if there was a possibility of us getting back together she doen't think things would be different. She also said this hasn't been easy for her and it has been very hard to get over me. When I ask her why she has to, she just says that we've been over this. It just seems like she still might feel something, but refuses to aknowledge it and squashes it.
As far as loneliness, you may be right. Like when I talked to that girl at work I could totally see myself with her and thought about her a lot that day. It just may be that I want somebody, not necessarily my stbx.
Re:feel like I'm going all the way back. SherylLynn: Cloud,
When did you get so smart and wise? You have really grown on this site. I wish I could get there. I am tired of the back and forth of the stupid #$%^ and I am ready to move on, but every time I get there, he takes two steps towards me and I walk the other direction than the way I should.
Keep talking with us, maybe some day I will be able to give the advice you give to someone else.
Thanks
Sheryl
Re:feel like I'm going all the way back. Kinney26: Actually, since you mentioned it, i think this whole feeling I have may be stemed from loneliness. I mean I do miss the stbx, but I feel like I coud be with someone else and be happy too. I am not like I was back then, I don't cry much anymore. I still get down, but I think I am just lonely. Thanks man. I feel a little better at least.
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