Re: I'm tired... doggstar: I am tired of wondering why she left
I am tired of wondering what I could have done
I am tired of hurting
I am tired of crying
I am tired of feeling helpless and alone
I am tired of these suicidal feelings
I am tired of worrying about her and our kids
I am tired of hoping she will realize what she has lost
I am tired of praying that she still loves me
I am tired of not being able to function
I am tired of missing my children
I am tired of imagining our wedding
But the thing I am tired of the most?
Failing at everything in my life.
God, please show mercy on your servant.
Re: I'm tired... vdc_1975: [quote author=foreverblue link=topic=40563.msg449733#msg449733 date=1170070349">
Take a day off buddy. Take a vdc day, and when you feel better, go hug your kids. Everybody needs a break.
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I got my oldest last night and get my youngest tonight. I asked my stbx if they could both spend the night tonight, but she says she isnt ready for that. I cant fault her though.
I took a week off at the begining of the month, its was OK I guess. The issue is that by working all the time I am at least forced to not think about all my problems. I just wish I could be brainwashed or something......
Re: I'm tired... foreverblue: Alright, hang on, I'm looking up the procedure to brainwash someone. I'll figure out how to get you a real day off. ;)
Re: I'm tired... foreverblue: You hang in there bud. Just keep telling yourself it can only get better. That's how I get through my day.
