Today SherylLynn: Today is no different than yesterday...except yesterday you looked in my eyes and knew we had to try again, but as you left tonight to go out again with your OW, I know that it will never be different.
It won't change if we move away to another state, it won't change if you promise to never contact her again, it won't even if you tell me everyday that you want to stay married. It won't change because you can't change.
You still blame me for all of this. It was my choice, it was my decision, it was my actions that caused you to call her again, it my idea to be able to date while we wait for the house to sell, so i shouldn't be upset when you do exactly that.
Forget the fact that you would still be seeing her even if I didn't say I wanted us to be able to date until the house sells. You just would have lied about it instead of being honest that you were going to go #$%% her.
I keep telling myself that we could make this work if only... if only you didn't stick your @#$% into her every 3 weeks when you changed your mind again, if only you didn't tell me every chance you get that its my fault in some way that all this happening, if only you ....
***, if you really loved me, you would never have cheated on me. if you loved your family, you would want more for our daughter than this life that we have created. you come home for 3 weeks and then leave and then come home and promise her it forever and then tell me it is my fault that you can't stay.
This is not my fault. I did not take your @#$% out of your pants and put it 3 other women. I didn't take our marriage for granted and stomp all over my heart for 3 years while you slept around. I didn't deserve to be treated this way and when I was finally ready to move on, you came back to try again. I was stupid enough to let you back, but not again.
After we sell this house, you will go your way and I will go mine. We only need to deal with the symantics of our daughters life and you can go make someone else's life miserable. I will go on to meet someone who will not take me or my love for granted.
