Re:My Story JTS: The only thing that I can say is that it will get better. Just try to focus on the good in your life right now like your new job and new roommate. I think that everyone on this site has felt the same way about themselves at some point but it does improve. And just keep in mind that if he could walk away from something great then he isn't good enough for you. Take care.
Re:My Story FolkChick76: Thanks for all the support.
The ex came by today to pack up some more of his stuff. And hung around watching TV with me like old times. I hate that. I hate it when it feels like everything is okay, but it's not and then he leaves. I wish he wasn't nice to me.
I called my sister to talk about how depressed I am, but she didn't seem to get it. She was like, "he was mean to you, he's bad for you, be glad it's over." But it's not that easy. I can hardly remember the bad times. I just want to good times back and future I had planned.
I feel profoundly unlovable and unnatractive. Like even if I am finally ready to move on sometime in the future, who the heck is going to want me. I've always kind of felt that I'm not good enough for type of guys I like and this breakup just reinforces that feeling.
I'd find a therapist, but I'm COBRA right now and that could make it so I cannot get health insurance once the COBRA runs out. Hopefully I get that job I was talking about and get insurance through them . . . what a nightmare.
Again, thanks for listening. . . .
~RMC
