7 months, and I still can't let go. masterlow: I'm getting so sick and tired of this...but obviously not enough to stop obsessing.
I feel like I'm doing all the right things; I joined a bowling leauge, I'm playing more guitar, I'm working harder, I'm dating, I'm reading more, I'm cooking more, I work out three times a week...blah blah blah
I still think about her constantly. I can't stop reading her freaking myspace page. I can't stop thinking about her and her new boyfriend. I feel so damn rejected. I can't stop asking why wasn't I good enough?
I know this is all about my personal insecurities. I've felt this way before when other women dumped me. You would think I would have built a tougher skin by now, but I haven't.
It's been a while since I posted here. I was starting to feel like OJAR was just another place for me to wallow in self-pity. But I'm at a loss for people to vent to. My few friends have heard it all for too long. I'm embarrased to show them how I still feel.
7 months, and I still can't let go. :'(
Re: 7 months, and I still can't let go. wizer_now: I recall your old posts. You were in pretty bad shape back then. Go and read them.
Realize that although you still feel crappy, you're in a better place right now. Even if it's not too much further along, you are moving along that road to recovery. Do you see that glow in the distance? The wizard of oz is waiting for you.
Re: 7 months, and I still can't let go. chaos40: Reading her myspace page is not going to help you at all... Why don't you set your pc up so that it cannot communicate with myspace at all?
Re: 7 months, and I still can't let go. masterlow: [quote author=chaos40 link=topic=41082.msg459225#msg459225 date=1171036444">
Reading her myspace page is not going to help you at all... Why don't you set your pc up so that it cannot communicate with myspace at all?
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I did...at first. Then I went so far as to have my friend setup a bunch of blocking mechanisms on my system, but I still found myself searching them out and removing them.
I clearly don't have the self control to not look. I would kill the internet connection if I didn't have to use it for work.
Re: 7 months, and I still can't let go. wizer_now: You've gotten obsessed. Next step is having your friend removing your computer from your house or at least cutting off internet access.
Do you really want to have to resort to that?
You gotta buckle down. Instead of searching out her web page, come here instead. We'll set you straight.
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