Re: It's completely over now trapped: [quote author=hope link=topic=41520.msg466647#msg466647 date=1172025810">
Yes, very strange how such an intimate relationship is so formally dissolved in a courtroom.
I hope you're doing okay on such a hard day.
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Agreed. It doesnt even seem real.
HUGS.
Re: It's completely over now MelanieW: I hope oneday you will be able to look back and see the positive in this whole situation. I know right now you feel that "Twilight Zone" feeling. Hang in there and know that you are not alone!
Re: It's completely over now brielle123: Thanks everyone for the kind words of support. It really does help :)
I still can't believe that it's all over and done with. I feel lonlier now than ever before, if that even makes sense. I know it's only legalities and my ex-husband has been gone for some time now, it still hurts though. I wish it would just stop. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about being divorced and failure...or how my life wasn't supposed to be this way. It's been a rough couple of days for me, I don't have much motivation and I just feel really down.
The thing is that I am soooooo tired of focusing on ME.....I am so over ME. I've been doing that for six months now, there's only so much focusing on yourself one can do before you start feeling self absorbed and just start to feel lonely again. At least that is how I feel right now.
I just missed having someone special in my life. I have this feeling that I'll never have that again. I know everyone says that, but I feel like because I want that so much it just won't happen for me....
I hate being so negative, especially when my problems seem like a pity party for myself in the grand scheme of things, of life...I know things could be much worse, but I still don't feel truly happy. I just hope I get there one day, but that is the thing...I'm starting to lose hope.
Re: It's completely over now hope: You really don't sound to me like you're having a pity party at all. It sounds like a totally understandable reaction to a difficult situation. I sometimes start to lose hope too (I made it my screen name here to force myself to remember to have it!), and usually, what encouarges me doesn't come right from my own thoughts, but it's other people who are encouraging me, telling me things will get better, that this is temporary -- people I trust and respect saying those things helps tons.
I know it's hard, but I also know it's gotten better for me from the beginning until now, and I believe somewhere in my heart (although it's often really hard to find that place) that they be okay in the future and I'll be able to feel happy again.
Re: It's completely over now *Tricia: so weird...i remember when i'm parents divorce was final...we all celebrated wth A pizza...6 children and an adult...we were POOR as hell and happy as clams in the ocean!
when my divorce was final, Dec. 14th 2006...same thing happened..i got a pizza with my daughter (3years old) and we had a pizza party, of course she had no idea what we were celebrating nor woudl i tell her. BUT i celebrated...the ending of one life and the OFFICIAL beginning of another...celebrate the new life..you have been mourning the past awaiting the finalization...celebrate now..crack a beer, put some dance music on...breathe the fresh air of life into your lungs...
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