Re: it was all so bleedin obvious qmambo: its weird sja its way too soon if he came back now cos i would cave im not strong enough emotionally its only been a few days of no contact in two months - but i really want him to comeback - but i dont think he will - just cos she said it is sinkin in doesnt mean he wants me back - just that after initially making the decision he has probably been very strong and logical about the whole thing and maybe now hes been out a few times with his mates - got his old laddish spirit back - watches what he wants on tv, leaves his clothes lying a round in a mess youknow the sort of stuff - he know thinks well i am lonely -
wheeras i felt that sudden hit straightaway but i gave too much i always do - give myself 100% - duh -dontlie tomyself about anything i know this will be a struggle - but i think after his initiall yeah life is great - now he goes home to himself and what he has done - i thinks its starting to hurt - he always says mind over matter, you can train your mind not to think negatively about anything and everything and that is the approach he took with me - clearly tho cracks are appearing so my friend seems to think.
Re: it was all so bleedin obvious qmambo: crushy i did think that same thing, i said to a mate why would she say it was all so horrible if it was merely a break up? but it wasnt we had been together a long long time and these people knew us for over 3 years and they know imoved here to be with him adn they know he tried to dump me over the phone and the fact that he has just abandoned me here with no one and wont even sort the money out and look after me in that respect is what i think she meant - but the thought does lurk in the back of my mind - oh god you have just set me off again -
should i ask her outright - when she emailed the first time a week ago and said get him outta your life hes playing you and i emailed her back saying please tell me exactly what you meant by that - she has only just emailed me this morning cos she was worried and she simply said that all she meant was that we should not be seeing each other not after he had broken up with me - and that unintentionally he was hurting me by contacting me all the time, i spent valentines night with him which i dont i wouldve if he had someone else, and he said come over to the house anytime you want to, i spent last saturday with him until late in the evening and sunday eve so he cuold have someone but it must be very low key if he is - i dunno C - i asked him outright twice and he has said no. but who knows maybe there is someone he likes but hasnt done anything yet?
i guess when she said today that he left early (from where i dont know) i assumed it was to go home as we would always hang out with them but maybe he went to see someone??????? i will prob never know - she just said that he asked how i was and that it was it! She said she thinks it is beginning to sink in what he has done to me but that its too late and he cant take back what he has done!
