Angry @ myself MelanieW: I let him get to me again! I am so angry at myself for allowing him to get me into an inner turmoil. Will I ever freaking learn?? GRRRRRRRRR Today is the first day I have ever gotten downright MAD at everything that is going on. To be honest, it felt good, but then I allowed it to get the best of me. I allowed his words to hurt me. I almost started to believe them even. Then I got my head on straight, and went for a long walk. I walked fast, making my legs burn. As I did this I felt a lot better. I started to think a lot clearer. I am just hoping that the next time he decides its a cool idea to verbally attack me, it won't have the same affect as today.
Re: Angry @ myself monkliey630: Why are you angry at yourself for? You didn't do anything. Get angry at him! Use the anger you have inside of yourself to help you not hurt you. Don't always think you are doing the wrong thing. Move EVER FORWARD!
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I am just hoping that the next time he decides its a cool idea to verbally attack me, it won't have the same affect as today.
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Melanie, can you put some of how you're feeling right now in a jar in your heart and take the lid off next time you find yourself in this position? Every time he starts in on you, deflect it. It's about HIS insufficiencies, not yours. You just happen to be a good target, and that's bullshit, from here on out.
Hugs!!!
Re: Angry @ myself Magalucia: They really do just beat the love right out of you sometimes.
Sorry you are going through this. But, well-directed anger is certainly better than despair.
