Sod him!!!!!!!!!!!! licy: hi guys,
Well today was a horrid day for me, i think the shock of finding out my mr perfect really left me for some tart and not an amazing job had finally sunk in!
in the past 4 days since i founf out the TRUTH! Iv........
1) not eaten a hardly bite and lost almost 4 plbs :( im already skinny so thats not good for me!
2) cried so hard i almost chocked myself!!
3) convinced myself it was ME who made him cheat, It was ME who wasnt good enough for him which made him want to leave,
4) convinced myself that im not good enough for anyone else because to me for so long he was perfect and could do no wrong!
5) Sat up all night thinking about him with her and how he could just forget about me after everything we had together!
The list could probadly go on and on but i have decided now that if he wants to big himself up by making up hes been offered some top job in the USA as an excuse to leave me when really he had a stupid crush on some bit of skirt! he can do that! he knows the truth and he is pathetic! i dont hate him i just think hes pathetic and i dont want a pathetic man in my life anyway.
So im now thinking OMG im glad im out of it! a complusive lier and a cheat a stupid little man indeed! im thinking sod him and she is more then welcome to him shel find out one day he aint all that when no dowt he does the same to her! hes just a fraud who puts on the charm and nice guy act but its all fake! Sorry to rant guys i just for some reason thought to myself why am i so hung up on this looser! yeh perhaps once he was my mr perfect but he proved himself to be alot less then perfect. i deserve better and im not going to find better while im moping around feeling sorry for myself ::)
I just want to say thanks to everyone whos helped me out the last couple of days, its really amazing to be able to talk about things with others helps get it all the bad feelings out
Thanks all
I do hope my current state of mind lasts! i feel im finally able to start to close this chapter of my life for good, its kind of easier now that i know hes just a looser cheat, he must of loved it when i bought the whole job thing, as before this weekend i still thought he was a great guy, and a great guy is alot more difficult to get over then a looser for me! ;)
Lucy xxxxxxxxxx
