I'm so sad :-( missu: I feel like I have gone back a million steps in my healing process :-[ For no reason whatsoever, I haven't tried to contact him, and neither has he.
But I've been feeling so down these past days, so alone, I've been crying like I used to, missing him, not accepting that this is the end, not understanding why he hasn't tried to contact me. In total and complete denial. I can't accept that after standing by me through almost the whole university stage, he won't be with me to see me graduate. It's killing, I can't deal with it...
I can't accept that the person who knew me better than myself, is now pretty much "dead" to me. No idea of his life. Nothing.
Help me guys...
Re: I'm so sad :-( Zipsfb: I know how you feel... when I graduated from undergrad I was in the same boat. But trust me you will get through this. We all have our ups and downs and you are doing such a good job so far! Keep being strong and don't contact him. We all have a way of glorifying the past and forgetting what those people did to us! I know because I've been doing the same games to myself lately...
We are here for you...
Re: I'm so sad :-( licy: :(
Please feel better hunny. its so hard to think of someone who was once there all the time and seemed to be your best friend now they have just vanished just a stranger.
Im also feeling bad today, i almost broke down in my supermarket when i saw his favourite packet of stupid biscuits i always bought for him when i knew he was coming to see me :(
At uni i live 13 floors up in my building! right in the middle of a big city i have been sitting on my window sill for hours just watching the traffic and people go by all day thinking about him all day
I hope youl be ok hun, email me if you need to
Lucy xxxx
