I quit! Melbel: You know at that point in which....in which you are there! I am there....I had to tell a 5 year old today that NOTHING he knew as normal...was going to be that way.
He pulled...fought..damn it he fought...but nothing...NOTHING I or he did mattered. I know I love teaching and I know that I love the kids....hence where the problems lay! I love them...I consider them my own kids, maybe it's because I spend more time with them then Parker and Haley...but I am looking at myself in the mirror...LMAO I think, know its because I can't know and love them any other way. I have called and logged complaints with CSD and I am sure he is safer now then he was before, I KNOW THIS!!! It's trying to tell a 5 year old in 3 minutes that what he knows is gone...he is gone!
So, with the blood stained shirt, black eye and 2 very large gashes on my face...I love my students. I give up! I can't/won't do this anymore...Some stitches and a rather great black eye...I quit! I will not be looking for another teacher job.....I am not as strong as I thought I was...J you win! You are RIGHT...I can't not help but get attached and you know what...I hate you for it! I suck at being a wife and I suck at being a teacher...the next thing is being a Mommy. I pray I suck less!
Today is Wednesday and I pray that my kids will see me when I pick them up from daycare. That they see how much they mean to me....they are my life have been and will stay that way!
Happy f*ckin Wednesday!!!
Melissa
Re: I quit! bamacannon: Noone here is going to let you quit baby, least of all me. *saves the rest of his reply for private* We're ALL here for you.
Re: I quit! Spike: Whoa, you aren't quitting nothing!!!! What the hell is this? You love what you do, and who you work with, cut the shit. I know, you had a rough day, welcome to life (get a crash helmet). Now, you will go back and take care of the other kids, who look up to you, and respect you, and care about you.
What the hell is going on around here? Let's remember who we are, and what we have come through, people. We are the fighters, the survivors, and the strongest people around.
Re: I quit! atlgirl777: Mel.........do I need to slap you? You are no quitter!!!!!!! Now stop this nonsense and buck up babe! I love ya! :-*
Re: I quit! sheydp: Mel. You are such a warm and wonderful woman. You have done a very difficult and loving thing. Of course you want to quit. It is very hard loving someone enough to do what needs to be done for them, even as they struggle against it. It is like holding your child so they can have a shot given. You know it will hurt. You know they will be scared, and angry, and in pain. And you have to do it anyway. What you did is just that – on a larger scale. It was the right thing to do – and it took courage and strength.
Now. You have to pull out even more strength. Your kids need you to be strong for them – just as that child did. Giving up on them now, when you have proven your strength, is just not the right thing to do. Children need love, they need protection. You know that, or you wouldn’t have done what you did. Parents/teachers need love, too. But we are strong enough to hold out when it isn’t coming our way, because we know it is there, anyway. When our teens tell us they hate us, we hurt, but go on – knowing they will understand one day how hard it was, and knowing they still do love us underneath.
You can do it. Take a deep breath. Draw from that place deep down that knows what right and wrong is. That knows what you did was hard, but right. Now clean up, and go back where you are needed. Do you want the next child in need to have someone who DOESN’T care and won’t get involved? You know that is harder and worse than the pain of going on. Keep going. You will settle back in. This is a rough day, but survivable.
((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))
Shey
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