Icebox where my heart used to be destinydriven: I have been dealing with some feelings this week that I need to get out. I have been divorced for 2 years, but I feel like I should be over the hurt and the pain by now. I am very frustrated with myself for not being able to sleep at night, for crying, for feeling alone. God has been so good to me and he has given me so much since my divorce, I don't know why I can't be completely happy with that!
My ex will be 30 yrs old on Saturday, I just really want to talk to him and wish him all the best. What is wrong with me, he hurt me, broke me....why do I want to talk to him?
My final issue, is that I have been talking to a new man.. he is 10 years older than me, and we are nothing but friends, but whenever he touches me..I get those butterflies, and I am very nervous around him. I think that he feels the same way, so nothing has really progressed. Instead of being excited, I am scared to death of these feelings and I am questioning every move. Is he too old, just being a nice guy, should I get involved with someone who makes me feel like this.
I mean I just feel like my emotions are out of control...has any felt like this before?
By the way, I love this song...it so captures what I am feeling
Omarion - Icebox
Fussin and fightin we back at it again (gin)
I know that it's my fault, you don't understand (no)
I got memories (huh), this is crazy (huh)
You ain't nothin like, the girl I used to know
Good wit mom, good wit pop, cool wit all my niggaz (my niggaz)
I should try to decide, wanting to let you in but (no)
Damn these memories (huh), and it's crazy (huh)
You ain't nothin like, the girl I used to know
Bridge
Girl I really wanna work this out cuz I'm tired of fighting
And I really hope you still want me the way I want you
I said I really wanna work this out damn girl I'm trying
It's no excuse, no excuse
Chorus
I got this icebox where my heart used to be
I got this icebox where my heart used to be
No, I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold
No, I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold (2x)
Why can't I, get it right, just can't let it go (go)
I opened up, she let me down, I won't feel that no mo'(no)
I got memories (uh), this is crazy (huh)
Shay ain't nothin like, the girl I used to know
Don't mean to take it out on you baby but I can't help it
Cuz my heart is in the same ol condition that baby left it
And I, I apologize, for makin' you cry
Look me in my eyes, and promise you won't do me the same
Re: Icebox where my heart used to be yella: [quote author=destinydriven link=topic=42602.msg486575#msg486575 date=1174587123">
What is wrong with me, he hurt me, broke me....why do I want to talk to him?
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There's nothing wrong with you. I think you want to contact him in order to get your own closure, and that's ok. If you choose to do this, prepare yourself for when he either doesn't respond, or does respond and wants to try to rekindle something (even if it's just sex, which is likely :-\ ).
Most times in order to be happy in a new relationship, you have to face the demons that hold you back. Like a past divorce and the effects it had on you. I had to do this too. It's hard, but it's crucial.
I can't tell you how to do this, and it might not happen as soon as you want it to, but it's important to take your time with this new one. Step by step is the way to go, and be honest with your feelings.
Re: Icebox where my heart used to be flipflopnomore: It's my ex's birthday on Saturday too. I am not looking forward to wondering where and with who he is with.
