An intelligent epiphany for a dumb blonde! (This is serious!) sunnynow: You all know that I have to post in premium for various reasons so I am posting this here. Over the past week, I have been pondering the situation that I have been in the past two years since my divorce. Here's the thing. I have finally got down to the real heart of the matter. Up until about two months ago, I wasn't able to feel anything but anger and bitterness about the whole situation. I wasn't able to see the real feelings until yesterday when it all came crashing down. I realize that now, it's not feelings of anger and bitterness, but I have actually dealt with the pain, loss of the love of my life, and suffering. I was too masked by the anger feelings to really deal with the other. It has all come to the surface! I have never cried so much or so hard in my entire life. I guess until now, I have been running off adrenalin and haven't really stopped to smell the real roses. I have now, and it hurts like hell! I know this isn't the happiest post by any means, but you have to look at it this way. Now, that I have seen all realms of what a divorce can do to a person, I am stronger! I am an emotional mess and emotionally exhausted, but I will be ok.
Re: Ya'll Will Be SO Proud of ME! AngelBaby: You're right babe, you will be ok. It takes time and effort, but once you finally muddle your way through all the emotions, you will come out on the other side and you will be SO much stronger for it.
It takes time and effort to work through all of the emotions that come along with losing what you thought was supposed to be the last relationship of your life.
I for one am VERY proud of you for having this revelation!!!
**HUGS**
Re: Ya'll Will Be SO Proud of ME! sunnynow: [quote author=AngelBaby link=topic=47509.msg568020#msg568020 date=1187133847">
You're right babe, you will be ok. It takes time and effort, but once you finally muddle your way through all the emotions, you will come out on the other side and you will be SO much stronger for it.
It takes time and effort to work through all of the emotions that come along with losing what you thought was supposed to be the last relationship of your life.
I for one am VERY proud of you for having this revelation!!!
**HUGS**
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Thanks, AB! I can tell you this. I feel like hell right now, but I know now that everything will work itself out! Bitter and cold can be two very lonely feelings. Feelings that I have dealt with for a while now. Now, that I am passed that and moved onto hurt and love I think everything will be just fine. Whomever knew that I would actually be sad about what happened? I for one, thought that I never would. Now, I am kicking myself in the ass!
Re: Ya'll Will Be SO Proud of ME! BobFromAcctg: Sorry to hear that Sass. If I was closer it would be Appletini's for all hands.
Sounds like maybe all the tears were a necessary thing. I know I cried long and hard at the onset of this process - now its more of a 'crap...I'm alone again'....
Hope it has helped.
Re: Ya'll Will Be SO Proud of ME! sunnynow: [quote author=BobFromAcctg link=topic=47509.msg568022#msg568022 date=1187134308">
Sorry to hear that Sass. If I was closer it would be Appletini's for all hands.
Sounds like maybe all the tears were a necessary thing. I know I cried long and hard at the onset of this process - now its more of a 'crap...I'm alone again'....
Hope it has helped.
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Crying = Therapy, Bob! Thanks for being here. I will be fine. I haven't found love but I have found out how much love can bite you in the ass!
