To you qmambo: This is not about what you did to me but what i did to you that i hate myself for:
I struggled to fit into your life, I was needy and emotional, nothing you did was ever good enough. I checked up on you and accused you without any good reasons, i was suspicious and uncaring, i did not have sex with you, i didnt respect you.
I suffocated you and blamed you, i made you feel inferior, i am so sorry for all those things i did to you, can you ever forgive me?
Now i am suffering and living with the guilt which is consuming.
You deserve to be loved.
I will not go into the things you did to me which were equally as bad as this is my apology to you.
I am sorry
