sister and my plans for life katbuttkid: I wish my sister hadn't have called.
She's a nurse too, an old school style stickler nurse... you know, with glasses on a chain on the end of her nose. She's very good at it. She works in the newborn ICU.
I don't know what she sees in me.
I got this day job, as a new RN, it's almost unheard of to get a day bid.
But I did.
It's not my ideal job, but it's good for now. It's a great first job in so many ways. And I love the small town I'm in.
I get to work acute care, swing bed, Long term care, and the emergency room. also because we are rural, I get to be pharmacist and phlebotomist.
I sighed when I had the vision of myself in this job.... I'd land the job, be great at it, move to the small town and rear my son there until he's done with high school. Life could be about him more than about me for a spell since I just put him through nursing school and it had to have sucked for him.
Everything was going great... the job loved me, I loved the job. I passed the boards, and they threw me a party. BF and I are breaking up, and I am sad, but I forget all about it when Im' at work.
I talked to my sister and was telling her about irrigating a patient's ears and the gross chunks I was getting out. I was telling her there aren't any rentals in this small town, only expensive places to buy, and I'm not ready to buy yet.
She said "You have a house here (in the town she lives in). Just move back. You can keep the job."
This is true, and I've thought about it. But then the small town where I work isn't the package deal.
It's still an hour drive. but an hour the other way.
and my XH lives there.
And the house... well, it would feel good to pamper it some, but it's SO piccolo -- it's TINY!
Smaller than this one.
So she says "Live with me, and fix it up. Add on to it. I won't charge you rent."
Then she says "P (my son) won't want to be in that small town for good. And neither will you. You're going to get bored. In a year you'll be calling me up saying you've irrigated someone's ears.. AGAIN."
She went on to say I know I can do more. That the death and dying and LTC scene isn't where I belong... that I know my dreams lie elsewhere...
The thing is, I'm good at the death and dying stuff. It's the dreams I'm scared of trying.
She had some good points tho.... one being that I beleive in trying for my dreams. The other being that if I do get bored, staying there until my son finishes high school would be hard on our relationship.
I get ADD, and I get hyper, and I get ancy... and I'm not good at killing time, or dragging my feet.
It sucks, but I have no tolerance. once I know what I want to be doing, or would rather be doing... I can't wait any longer.
And after she told me that, I knew she was right.
I'm going to be bored in a year, maybe two. Maybe even sooner.
My dream is to be a nurse abroad, in Nepal or Tibet. I want to work base camps at high altitude expeditions. I can do this.
But my son... I am not sure where he fits in.
So, what do I do?
I have at least 5 years with him, and 5 years experience needed before I go off and try for it.
Perfect timing.
But what do I do in the meantime?
Go back to where my sister lives and she can help out, we can be part of each other's lives... ? work nights? Get a new job? change jobs as often as I want so I don't get bored?
I was all fired up to move there. I wish she hadn't called.
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Re: sister and my plans for life Freckles: Being around Family is Important for You and for Your Son
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