love of my life... caligirl: ..you once were, and now i feel just saddened.
Saddened that you chose the easy way out,as always.
I no longer wish you had the courage to want this marriage.
Actually came to the realization that it may just be for the better.
I thought about how I felt after we spoke for the first time in 6 weeks, I thought about how I felt 6 weeks prior, and how afraid i was to call you to talk about the inevitable D, I was scared to call you because of how I felt after our last dialog. But now I think about how I feel now, I feel relieved in a cretain sense, less anxious, which came to my surprise.
I no longer am going to allow you to hurt me, and your word is no longer of value to me.
It is sad, I am sad, but I realize i am also very strong and resillent(sp?)....and I no longer feel that I have failed in our marriage, I have done everything, and i will walk away with dignity and resolve.
I don't feel angry any longer, just sad.
:-[
