To My H SherylLynn: Another day and another lie. Another motel room and another argument.
I don't know what to say. You tell me I shouldn't snoop, but then you shouldn't sleep around but you do. I know what I did was deceitful. Lying and checking your email anyway is deceitful. But so is meeting someone online just f*** and then lie about to me.
You said you wouldn't mess up our lives again. You said you didn't want to have another summer like the one we had this year. You knew you had so much to be thankful for and blew it for a blow job.
I just don't understand this at all.
Re:To My H amess: I'm so sorry SL, my heart just breaks for you. Now, I hope you aren't offended, but when you take a liar and a cheater back, you both need to be in counseling before he comes back and while he is back. Plus, any counselor would tell you that because he has broken trust in the most major manner, he owes it to you to be accountable for everything, AND I mean EVERYTHING. His whereabouts, his emails, all of it, answer all phone calls during the day, etc. Some cheaters who really want to make it a go wear beepers. For a cheater to be let back into the marriage, is like they are getting out of prison, but still on probation. The point is that they have to reassure the injured party for as long as the injured party needs to put trust back in the union. So his saying you are deceitful, is gaslighting you, so you won't find out about his dirty secrets, and you calling yourself that is just nonsense. Of course you are not going to trust him, especially when you get a whiff that he is doing it again. You have nothing to feel badly about, on your behalf. You deserve someone worthy of your love and trust. Stay strong, and pm me if you would like to, love Greta.
Re:To My H Shanna: You know my STBX wanted me to start trusting him again immediately. He said the only way for him to gain my trust if for me to trust him... he snuck and met up with her at the grocery store bc that is the only rope I gave him to hang himself with. Go figure.
Re:To My H SherylLynn: Well, my dear husband, I have found that I am wrong and I will admit it.
I took the evidence that was right there in front of me and I suspected the worst. I didn't trust you, because quite frankly, I wasn't ready to trust you. I wanted to believe that you would hurt me again. I wanted to be right.
I wasn't.
Please forgive me. Trusting blindly won't come easy. But I won't make this mistake again.
All my love,
me
