Random Thoughts computerperson: Hey all, I haven't posted much of my situation lately and I'm not sure where this post should go because it's kind of a something good happening/vent/I just don't know what else, so hear goes.
-- I settled on my new house last week and have been moving in. It's nice to be on my own again, I have my own space to do my thing (I was staying with family for the last 7 weeks for those of you that don't know). Not to brag, but I've finally bought some of the things I've wanted over the last 2 years and that's just great. I think I'm finally growing happy in my own skin.
-- Trying to decide if I should send my 2 step-daughters a small Christmas present this year, just a gift card or something like that. I'm still their stepdad and while I probably won't ever have contact with them again, I don't want to be a jerk. I do care about them and want them to know that…even if I didn't get treated the best in part because of them. (Not that I blame anything on them AT ALL, but it is the truth from how my stbx acted.)
-- I've been doing pretty good meeting women lately, though I only gotten to 1 second date…all by my choice oddly enough. I'm not sure if I have a problem with women or not yet…first of all, I do know that I would like to find someone, I'm not a bitter, soon-to-be divorcee. I think it's part that I finally know what I need in dating and I completely refuse to settle. However, I think I do have a trust issue at the moment…any woman that I meet, that's the first thing that crosses my mind, but shouldn't you want to be with someone that you can trust, right? Can't know that from the start though. Feels like I'm in some type of a thought loop there…I'm sure I'll find someone that will, finally, for the first time in my life, knock my socks off. I want to be able to say to myself, "Self, is this too good to be true?" Heck, I've even delete a gal's phone number from my cell about 5 minutes after getting it because she did something that rubbed me the wrong way. I'm crazy, huh? Even with my new comfort level, this dating thing still bothers me sometimes.
-- With the holidays coming up, I've had a rush of memories about how I don't feel that I've EVER had a gf/wife that has made me feel special on those days. I think I'm going to even skip out of Turkey Day this year with my family because I'm tired of ALWAYS being there alone. I'm not jealous of any of them…I'm very happy for everyone, but sad for me because I'm tired of it. If that makes sense, though maybe I'm being a little too selfish.
As always, I'd like to extend my best wishes to everyone going through bad situations…I'm very thankful for my family and friends and for the fact that I've gotten through a lot of the separation type stuff quickly with little mental anguish. I'll close my post with a quote.
"We must approach the turning points in our lives with purity of heart. We must look beyond ourselves, and when we see danger approaching or a difficult choice ahead, we must calm ourselves well in advance, so that we can navigate with a clear mind. Once we have mastered the technique, we can learn to trust that we're doing the right thing, without thinking about it."
-- Zonama Sekot (The Unifying Force)
Re:Random Thoughts whathef?: NICE UPDATE.
Send the gift to the step kids as long as it's done with good intentions, which seems to be the case.
If anyone has a problem with it, it's their problem.
Keep the strength!
John
Re:Random Thoughts computerperson: Thanks John...and thanks for the advice regarding my (soon-to-be-ex-)stepdaughters. I will probably send a small gift, but I really don't want to hear anything from my stbx about it...good or bad.
(PS--I'm sorry excited, this is my 100th post...is that a good thing or a bad thing?)
Re:Random Thoughts RecoveringinDE: Hey hun! That is a GREAT update! I agree with whathef, get your step children their gift as long as you are doing it because you want to, not because it would rub your ex the wrong way. But, from what you said, you are doing it from your heart =)
As for the holidays, I kind of understand what you are saying, but, I'm sure your family would love to have you.
As for your 100 posts, I'm over 300 =\ lol.
Re:Random Thoughts Kinney26: Computerperson,
I know you were one of the people asking where to meet woman a while back. You seem to be doing pretty well in that dept. What have you found out, please share.
Well over 500 posts. :)
Kin
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