my first unsent letter on here down south xhubbie: I'm just so confused as to why this has all happened. ??? As I've told you on several occasions, I know I made mistakes, but the punishment doesn't fit the crime. You've made the Smoky Mountain Range out of molehills.
Yes I yelled at you, but only after you had been ignoring me for so long. I was trying to wake you up that you had a family that you just couldn't ignore. I was trying to get you to stand up to your mom and not let her dominate our lives like she does everyone else. I wanted to make it clear that I was in pain and that you were ignoring our kids.
We talked about things behind closed doors that you held against me. I apologized when I found out that you thought it was offensive.
I was occasionally jealous of you, but you cut me off from my family and friends, as well. We got together with your family on special occasions and on holidays. However, the only way I could see my family was to go it alone with our son. Before he was born, I did not get together with my extended family although they lived only a few miles away.
I was so disappointed to have to explain where you were every holiday. Eventually everyone quit asking me. I would tolerate your a-hole brother at family get togethers. Meanwhile, nobody in my family said a cross word to you. In fact, they all hugged your neck and welcomed you. You let the younger crowd at our gatherings get under your skin. They ignored you, because they were talking to one another. Also, you never tried to talk to them.
You told me that we would never get a divorce. You said that we could go to opposite sides of the house should we not want to be together.
The lies, the phone calls (the last call of the day which was supposed to be special) went to another man, the sexy undergarments worn to work, buying teen CDs and hiding them from our teenager.
and to put the icing on the cake
You kept telling me in the last few weeks of our being together that you "didn't love me anymore." When I suggested a "trial separation", you cried like a baby. An hour later, you bring out a brand new bikini. Now granted you had never worn a bikini at all while we dated or were married, but you had bought it in advance and took laps around the pool even before I could clear the property. I'll never forget the excited look on your face that last day when you would be starting a new life and getting rid of the "ole ball and chain". Two weeks later, I get a report that you had been at the beach with another man. It seems that all of my compliments and trying to build you up were a little too much. I made you feel so good that I was no longer enough. :-\
