insecurities tossed: Ok so Im going to be a bit transparent here.
In the last few months Ive discovered quite a
bit about myself. Im a insecure man. The events
in my life recently have brought such intense
emotions Ive had no choice but to examine them.
My fears have ruled my life. My relationships with
people are completely tainted with it. Its sickening
I wonder If I am even capable of a mature
relationship friend or otherwise. How does one
change whats at the core of their being. Is it even
possible or our we doomed to live crippled in the
mind, chained to what we have lived. Im like a
woman who will only marry men who beat her.
I developed in a shame/religion environment,
picked a woman who picked up where my parents
left off with the disregard and marginalization.
holy sh*t Im slipping into some self pitty. I should
go....
Re:insecurities cadillacjack: Yikes! lighten up on your self there, you are in a depression/funk.....breathe, don't be so quick in blaming yourself.....work on healing.....keep posting....we're here
Re:insecurities tossed: Yeah I had some fu*ked up dreams last night
woke up several times crying. Left me kinda dazed
with this taste of the dreams like they were
yesterdays events not a dream at all.
[me=tossed"> breaths.... [/me">
thanx...
Re:insecurities moser: Tossed -
I know what ya mean. I certainly don't need my ex around to insult me, I've been beating myself up pretty good lately.
I don't know which is more disturbing. The bad dreams or the good dreams. When having good dreams, I'm at least sleeping peacefully, but I hate the couple minutes after waking and realizing that it isn't real, I'm not peaceful at all.
I for one have big expectations for 2005. I will allow myself to be miserable through Christmas, but that's it 2005 has to be better than the last year.
Re:insecurities simon 17: Relax. Everyone has their insecurities. Some more than others. At least you're secure enough to be able to admit to yourself that you have many insecurities. So stop beating on yourself.
Course of action... Work on some of those things that make you insecure. One at a time. Don't expect overnight success, but enjoy each small achievement. That should develop your confidence. Number two, and I can't stress this enough, run, work out, learn new things - self-improvement does wonders for confidence. Go at it slowly and progress from there.
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