If I make it through tonite jjbswest: I think if I make it through tonite, I will be ok. The holidays are a bad time to go through this. First Christmas which was horrible and now New years. This will be the first new years without him. It's depressing. He is supposed to come see the kids today. I am excited myself about seeing him. My sister is coming to spend the night with me so I don't have to be alone. But, it really doesn't help any because I would rather be with him. But, on the up side, after I make it past today, there are no more holidays for awhile and maybe by then, I will be past all the depression and hurt. yeah right.
