Re:December 32nd Kinney26: Bring on 2005. I am really hoping this is a breakout year in my life, especially after being a depressed piece of sh!t for half of 2004. THe ex and I are working on things, I start school in March, and by the end of the year I should have a much better job. I hope it goes that way anyway. I'll never say never, but I don't think it can be worse than last year. I hope.
Kin
Re:December 32nd krunk79: Ditto Kin!
2004: It was a pretty bad year.
2005: Can't be worse than 2004 (knock on wood!). I'll graduate with my degree in computer science, find a job I actually like, maybe work things out with the wife. If not, move on with life after ex perhaps meet somone new. In any case, I can't be much more depressed than I was in the latter half of 2004. I hope.
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Re:December 32nd Suddenly Single: I have always loved to reflect on what the previous year brought me and what I have to look forward to in the next year. Last year at this time - there were so many great possibilities. I had 2 great trips planned, my house was coming along beautifully getting a lot done, great job, great friends, great family - nothing really to be too concerned about. Even starting to think about having my own family which for me a BIG step! Little did I know in a few weeks - that would all start changing.
In January - I skied, snow tubed in Jackson Hole, went on a sleigh ride through an Elk Refuge, snowmobiled through Yellowstone Park - stood on the continental divide, took a tram to the top of a mountain! Then I also found out *I* wasn't making my husband happy - so for 3 months I did everything possible to change that and make him happy. Little did I realize that I wasn't happy with us anymore either and everything I was doing wasn't making me any happier. I was so focused on making him happy - I failed to realize the lack of my own happiness.
In March was the BIG trip we had been waiting for. COSTA RICA! This was the 5th anniversary trip that was going to **save** our marriage. In Costa Rica I did a Canopy Tour, sat in hot springs, saw a volcano, stayed at probably the best hotel in the world, saw wild monkeys, sloths and alligators, did a couple raft tours, catamaran cruise, rainforest hikes, and had so many amazing experiences ( all completely outside of my marriage) Less than 24 hours of coming home - I was told that he met someone else and works with her. The next day - April Fool's Day I got to tell everyone this news. (Who was the fool?)
So there began the divorce process. Well we closed on the house by memorial day, divorced June 29th. By the end of June I had pretty much lost any/all of our mutual friends and NO ONE in his family ever called/wrote/emailed to see how I was doing. My entire world was torn apart as I knew it but as off kiltered as I was...there was such relief and such peace coming to me. until....in the beginning of May I had met Mr. Wonderful! He was the guy for me - strong willed, funny, sweet, smart - he wasn't a wimp (VERY big with me considered I had just gotten rid of a total wimp/pushover) this is someone who made me feel beautiful, sexy and wanted. I thought he was almost perfect for me. Everything he said and did was GREAT! Until I find out that everything he ever told me about himself was a complete and utter lie and that he actually is wanted in another state for breaking an order of protection. Needless to say - back and forth with this idiot until August when I realize that I need to be taking care of myself better and get rid of him. SO I endedup having to get my own order of protection!
Really, things didn't start looking up until about late August when I found Ojar. I've met so many people on here and the support has been incredible. I have also found someone on here who has made me incredibly happy and I've come to love very much. I can't imagine life without this person.
So as I look back to 2004 - some would say that it was a horrendous year. One to not be repeated. But as I look back - I don't think I would change a thing. This year has made me who I am today and I am starting to like me. I have a ways to go. I loved the experiences I had on my trips and I am happy to be out of a marriage that didn't bring me peace or happiness.
BRING ON 2005!!!! I hope it brings peace, health and happiness to us all!
SS
Re:December 32nd amola: 2004.......
well....let's see.....
we found our dream house, and although i had some misgivings about it i didn't voice them, thinking that maybe buying a house would be the thing that would save our marriage. we closed on the house on 5/6 and i had our third child and first son on 5/12. i was expected to pack and unpack and clean and scrub both houses while either 9 months pregnant or recovering from giving birth....while on maternity leave, one of my best friends was killed in a horrible car wreck......at her funeral, i chatted with a guy i used to work with, and he offhandedly made me a job offer......went back to work, my employer found out about the job offer and fired me after 6 1/2 years of putting my heart and soul into the place.....so i started working for this guy doing the exact same job (that i love) from the comfort of my home without the 75-mile round trip commute every day for a buck more an hour.......my marriage totally fell apart and my husband screamed at me "*uck off *itch" at me at the top of his lungs in front of our kids for the last time on 10/20......i filed for divorce that day, something that i said that i would never do......got myself a second job to pay off bills.....worked out a decent arrangement with stbx as far as the kids go......have learned so much about myself and what i'm capable of.....
2004 definitely had its ups and downs.......and is not a year that i'd like to repeat anytime in the near future. i have plans for 2005.....and they are plans for things that i want to do....and i'm going to fulfill those plans......
here's to another year!!!!!!
