I seriously don't know how much I can take jjbswest: I just want to say thanks to everyone that posted to my last post: "he said he loved me". I know that you you all are telling the truth. I never looked at it as he was still controlling me. What happened today is that my daughter had been trying to call him since last night and finally reached him about 2:30. She said maybe he got up and seen that we called and didn't want to talk to us and left.That ticks me off. But anyway, when I got on the phone to tell him about the kids trying to reach him all night and day, he got an attitude with me. I said is she there with you and he said yeah. I said I thought yesterday that you said you loved me and you needed time to think. He said I didn't tell you anything yesterday. :o So, I said well, I am so tired of going through this. I need to get on with my life if you don't want me and he said well, get on with your life. I said that my house payment is due and you don't even care. You are blowing your money on booze and partying. He said No I didn't, I blew my check picking up all those bad checks you forged my name on. :o I said I didn't forge nothing. He is just trying to make me look bad in front of her. I said well, I guess you are lying to her and to me then. He said I aint lying to nobody. I don't want you. I told you that. I said Fine, then all we need to talk about is the kids and nothing else. I will get on with my life. I am so close to hating you right now. He said I don't care if you hate me or not. I have decided that I gave him a chance to come home even after him cheating. He doesn't want me. There's no plainer way to say it. But, how can he take her to his family dinner and still be legally married to me? How can he treat me so mean after loving me for 12 years? Why does he think that this girl is such a good person? How can he think that I am so bad? He blames me for it all. I told him there is no justification for cheating whatsoever. He said whatever. I am seriously tired of it all. If it weren't for my children, I would be seriously depressed.
