Do the words mean anything... Schawdae: I spend each night alone. Well not entirely alone I have the memories and dreams that continue to haunt me. I fill the emptiness with my thoughts and words. I could write a book with what comes out at night. But it seems to me that after I write my heart and soul on a piece of paper it is a waste... WHy is it a waste? The person that I am writing to has no want or need to read my heart aches. So I sit there wondering why I even bother, why do I let someone who obviously can care less about me have such a hold on me? I just want him to understand the disaster that he has caused. I was happy, I mean truly happy, what could I have possibly done to deserve this? I was in my opinion a great wife. I was there when he needed me ALWAYS!! Why couldnt I get the same in return? Or at least a little compassion. Is that to much to ask? I DONT THINK SO! I think that you are supposed to give what you want out of a relationship. So I gave my heart and soul and got nothing but a shattered heart in return. Is love worth the pain that you could possibly recieve in the end??
Re:Do the words mean anything... jjbswest: Wow Shawdae! I feel the same way! I was a good wife even though he has me questioning that alot. But, I really know I was good. I was faithful, honest, took care of him and our children. The daytime is hardest for me because he was never really here at night anyway. That was when he worked. But, I am on here alot. Posting and posting. I don't think we did anything to deserve the heart ache that we have. And I don't know that I could ever love someone with the same kind of love that I have for him. But, everyone tells me when I find someone who respects and loves me like they should, I wont' be able to help it. IT will surpass the love I feel now. Who knows? But, don't let him make you question yourself. Is love worth the pain? I have my two kids from it and they are worth every minute of it. I wouldn't change it because then I wouldn't have them.
Re:Do the words mean anything... Schawdae: Thank you so much for your words...I guess if I was to hide in a cave and pass up the chance to love again it would be like him wining all over again and for the rest of my life. Thank you for making me understand what I should have already known!!
Schawdae
Re:Do the words mean anything... Kinney26: Well, I think love is worth it. I am trying to rebuild a relationship with the same woman who crushed me 7 1/2 months ago. Why, because I never stopped loving her, I have a 3 year old son who deserves his mommy and daddy, because if we can straighten out the things we did wrong it can be wonderful. I did pleanty wrong in my marriage and I am taking this second chance to try and fix that. THere were moments and feelings that occured throughout my marriage that were unmatched my anything I have ever felt and I would give them back for nothing. THere is no way I'd want to live my life never feeling those things again. It killed me inside when she left, yes, but the hurt and pain will eventually go away and if I can feel those emotions and feelings and live those wonderful breathtaking moments again it will all be worth it.
Kin
