My First time bella: Hallo world I have taken the plunge and here I am reaching out after a lifetime of feeling alone in an impossible marriage. This kind of feels weird but over this xmas and New Year your stories and messages of hope have kept me focusing on the positive and remembering that I am not alone.
Married for fifteen years and having agreed to a temp separation after many years of being betrayed and lied to and generally taken for a ride you know the co-dependent kind .. the highlight the final straw came on the 18th of December promising the kids and me he'd come home for xmas found out through a mutual friend he was using again and had shacked up with a twenty something.....
anyhowse the point is I know what it feels like to be the one suffering and I thought that it was mostly women going through this unfair life scenario instead lo and behold men are suffering so much too that kind of gives me hope that there are good human beings everywhere that it is not about men or women but about being a good human being....
I know this time is about me and I feel blessed to have been given a second chance on life...and yes I wish there was a magic wand to remove all the unwanted images in my head and the hurt in my heart and yes I was faithful and solid and loyal but I have three beautiful and challenging children and the chance to believe again the chance to let go and to give myself a standing ovation for the effort, love and sweat I put into my marriage. And maybe now I can still believe in happy endings and watch a romantic comedy and enjoy...I am not letting one human being put the light out and destroy my vision of how life should be: not perfect but loving,fun, warm....So thanx to all of you for bringing me a tiny nanostep closer and a biggest of biggest hugs to those who are still on the rollercoaster or imprisoned in suffering..... Happy 05
Bella
Re:My First time jjbswest: What is it with Dec 18. that's when I caught mine with his ugly, nasty, **** (fill in the blank). Anyway, that's what I thought. It was mostly women until I found ojar and I realized there are good guys still out there and I hope that I find one some day. We do have to give ourselves a standing ovation for being the type of person that we are. for being a good wife or husband. And that we did everything we could to try to save our marriage and they still didn't want it. So, we now have to go on and try to start this new year out with a new life as hard as that sounds. I do anyway.
Re:My First time gumby55555: Dec. 18 was also the day we broke up! I hate that damn date (but I do apologize if it's a special day or bday for someone on Ojar! You guys are all so great that I'd probably stop hating that damn day if it was! :)...
Re:My First time Dino: Wow, I didnt even realise what day I got dumped. It was the 17th but she found her new man on Dec 18th.
Re:My First time abelarde: Alright mine left on Dec. 16...this is really freaky.
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