PMSing? :broken:: :P
I can blame it on PMS, but there was something very real about yesterday's breakdown. I started looking into our photo album, pictures of me, pictures of him, pictures of us together with me pregnant, pictures of us on our birthday (we share a birthday) and pictures of him with our daughter.... it was too much, they say remembering is reliving, I relived every moment of every picture, when my daughter saw the tears she asked why I was crying, I told her mommy was happy and I was, I was happy to relive those happy times, rememering who took the pictures, what we were doing, and when it came time to close the album it was ok, because that's not him anymore, and that's not me, it was us when we were happy, now it's time to build more memories even if it is apart. I've also had great times with my daughter now, and have built great memories with just the two of us. i saw him yesterday when he brought my daughter back and I knew that that man in the pictures is not him anymore, we've moved on. The memories will always be there for us to relive.
I have never done this before, but, I want to thank him for those 5 years and for a wonderful daughter, and for the chance to actually look for happiness. I never thought I could feel this way, so in peace with myself, with the situation.
A shout out to the quoted below...
[quote author=Safetykc link=board=1;threadid=6147;start=0#msg49014 date=1103157766">
Yes YES YESSSSSSS!!!
You have no idea, as time goes on, and the divorce is done, and more time goes on how much progress you will make. You are in the early stages though and are in for a lot of pain, theres no way to sugar coat it.
So to answer your question, emphatically YES...
But here's the rub.....
You won't believe it until you are there yourself. Everyone here kept telling me it would get better and to hang on...but it was just words until I felt it for myself.
But it still helped....big time....
So, Hang in there... IT DOES GET BETTER BROKEN!!!!
;D
Hugs,
Safety
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I believe you now! It's getting there! :)
Re:PMSing? Shanna: that totally brought a tear to my eye....glad you have come so far.....
I found out today I am further along that I thought. So I congratulate us both.
Re:PMSing? :broken:: Congratulations to both of us then! :)
Re:PMSing? Terry: Thanks,
Have been hanging around ojar a bit more than I should right now..... but I'm getting the tears finally going thanks to all sharing!
Love your strength
Terry
